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KABANATA XXXIX - Cold treatment

SAMANTHA POV:

After the distribution of card, for the 3rd Quarter, I don't know if it's me or . . something is changing . . between us.

He's being distant and invalidating my feelings everytime I rant on him. As a communicative girly, I will always like to communicate it, before it's too late. Even he's invalidating my feelings, I didn't bother to give up, yet, he's giving me a go signal to do it already.

I'm trying to understand him . . .I'm trying my best. I hope, he doesn't take advantage of it and think of it as a permanent thing in the world.

Now, I'm looking at him from my seat. We haven't talk since this morning, even I was beside him, we didn't talk.

I heard from his friend, something came up on their family, involving his grades this past quarter. He catched up in Second Quarter as a with honor, yet, third and first, he didn't. Last school year, he had a with honor medal.

I don't know . . if I was the problem or him. Does our love from each other sacrificed his grades?I'll never want him to fail something he's good at . . because of his love for me.

Or, is this because he's experiencing something he won't like to tell. Specifically, he don't want to open up. I'm always there, reminding him that I'm just always here, if he need someone to talk or cry to. I'll try to understand him, like the way he want.

I asked Shannelle if she could help me to cut my printed copies of notes in MAPEH, I didn't have a time to copy it and it's so long to add in mind. A lot of schoolworks and deadlines ate shorter than the usual is breaking me mentally. At the same time, I'm trying my best to understand him on ways I can.

I remember it . . . the day I told him that I will always listen on his problems if it's too heavy to cry on, and he replied a phrase of 'sana nasa bahay ka, kung ganoon' his voice was hinting different emotions; disappointment, sadness, pain and suffering on it.

When we were busy cutting some things, my eyes accidentally glanced at his place, suprised when I saw my friend, Jovie, sitting beside him.

They're laughing, enjoying each other company. A pang of pain shot me inside. Why the hell am I being jealous . . over a friend, again?

It's just the two of them in that row, in the back row to be more specific.

I avoided my gaze. Shit, this is bad.

"You okay?"Shannelle asked, hint of concern on her voice. I forced a nod. "Y-yes, why would I not?"I said.

She hugged me, stunned for a few seconds and hugged her back after. I feel being comforted and understood.

The hug lasted for a minute and we both let go. Okayy, I'm just over reacting again. I won't do the same thing again.

I decided to play the music titled Jealous by Nick Jonas in full volume, making Shannelle tugged a small smirk on her lips.

"I don't like the way he's looking at you."I sang with the lyrics while the attention is still on cutting the printed copies.

When I steal a glance again, him and her are leaning on the armchair, gaze meeting each other, then, I don't know, but smile on each other lips are plastered. He even patted her head and she even slap him freely on the arm.