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KABANATA XXXX - Strangers?

SAMANTHA POV:

"Dito na ako, beh. Sabay ka nalang kaya saamin?"Jovie suggested, she's gonna ride the tricycle owned by her one relative.

"Hindi na, kaya ko naman mag-isa 'no"I assured and smile.

"Sigurado ka?"she asked, hint of concern in her voice, I nodded.

"Sige, mag-ingat ka ha?text mo ako kaagad pag nakauwi ka na"she said and cross the road, the tricycle is on the other side of the road.

After crossing the road, she waved her hand to signal her goodbye and I did too.

I start walking away, going to the direction of the entrance of the school. I can't bear to wait on the exit, knowing I don't know someone, neither someone I close their. I don't want to feel left out there, plus, I might have a hard time in taking a seat in a tricycle that will park for a few seconds or one minute to let passengers take the unoccupied seats left.

I'm holding my two books, more likely hugging it. Walking alone in the road, silence and just different transports sound.

When I arrived in the waiting area near the entrance, I heard someone spoken from not so far from my place. "Uyy, Rej, si Sam oh, mag-isa, samahan mo!"

That's probably from Joan, who's supporting the two of us.

I don't want this kind of feeling. . . the hope. Knowing that he won't do it, yet, I'm still hoping.

Who knows, right?maybe he will change his mind and realize that he's being too much, especially in being distant.

I'm literally alone in this waiting area, sun set is coming, making the sky became light orange.

He can fully see me here from their place, they're in the little waiting shed, near in the pathway of entrance.

I didn't heard any words or replied with him, acting like he didn't heard her. Wow.

Maybe, he needs . . space, right?

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"O, ba't malayo kayo sa isa't isa?ano meron?"tanong ni Leicel nang mapansin na nasa tindahan si Rej nakikitambay, kami ay nasa waiting shed ng Exit.

I shrugged my shoulders. "I don't know too."

Leicel face softened, Shannelle and Jovie came closer to us, curious. "Ano, sapakin ko na ba?"Shannelle jokingly punch the air, but, her tone wasn't in joking tone.

I forced a chuckle. Does punching him, even in slightest way, could bring his mind and soul again?

"No need"I shortly uttered and took a seat.

They took a seat beside me. "You can tell us, Sam"Jovie said, comforting something inside of me, that been broken slowly by slowly.

I shaked my head. "I'll tell you, guys. In the right time, I need further observations pa"I said and sigh.

They sigh and accept their fate that I'm not ready to tell them.

In next 12 minutes, the tricycle arrived, we almost barely occupied a seat, thankfully, the boys who's occupying the seats were gentleman, they decided to standby in the tricycle rather than sitting there.

And just like as the usual, he left the tricycle after we reached their house, completely ignoring me . . like a stranger in his life.

I mean, I get it, he's having a hard time in controlling his own emotion, he's having a hard time communicating with others, but, that is not an enough and valid reason to gave me a silent treatment.

I'm just a human after all, I get tired too?does he even realize that he's hurting me?that he's draining me?

I never wanted him to be a stranger in my life again, like my past ones. That's why, I'm trying to keep us connected, keep us in contact, and I don't know if he doesn't treasure that.

I'm ready to listen if he needs one, he don't need to take it alone, especially if it's too heavy to handle on, right?

As I entered the house, I immediately changed uniform to the casual fits. After I lay down in the sofa, I felt something on my cheeks, probably tears.

Luckily, my mother and my sister wasn't
here in house at this moment. I let my feelings let out. It's draining the hell out of me, I can't keep it at all times.

I grab my phone, tears still rolling down. I opened my messenger app, my eyes immediately found Leicel's profile in chats, I typed a message.

Leicel?can I rant?

I was about to send it, yet, guilt rushed to over my body. She's busy and have her own life. I don't want to add on. So, I erased it and exit her profile.

I saw Shannelle's profile, she's online, maybe . . she can answer me right?So, I typed a message.

Shannelle?are you free right now?

Not too long, flashbacks of how hurt she was because of her own sufferings and trauma came, so, I erased it again.

I also did the same thing in Jovie and Raven, yet, I never sent it. Who knows?I might just bother them.

I spent 30 minutes crying, thinking of what I've done, for him to ignore me like that. Even, asking my worth.

That's how you want it?then, I'll play it with you. I'm already tired of being a backburner. If he don't want us to talk, then I shouldn't be too.

I will let him taste his own medicine.

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