No context just sad little me at 1AM :P
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Thirteen Reasons
Just thirteen reasons
I tell myself
Thirteen reasons why
One: I'm not good enough
Society, I find, is just a contest
Where many are disqualified
Just for being themselves
Two: I'm not smart
What once was my delight
Has now become my demise
And three: I'm not sporty either
Four: Do I look okay?
I stare at that girl and tell her she's ugly
I gaze in her eyes and break her into pieces
Then I look away from my reflection
Five and six: Am I too nice? Or not nice enough?
Sometimes I feel I'm too kind
And others I feel too mean
I guess there's no 'perfect middle' for these kinds of things
Seven: Do they even like me?
Mixed signals fly around everywhere
They sting like a swarm of wasps, buzzing
And they make me doubt your every move
Eight: It's too loud
Comforting silence surrounds me every night
Leaving only the hum of an overthinker's mind
Quiet, yet too deafening to sleep
Nine, ten, eleven: My mom, my dad, my sister
None of which could bring me harm
But none can bring healing either
For I keep my thoughts hidden behind a smile
Twelve: My friends
They say they understand until they don't
Always there, but not when I need it
I'm not even sure if they care anymore
Thirteen: Too much
The light, the dark, the ups and downs
The world, the people, and everything else
They say find beauty, but I tried and failed
Thirteen reasons is all I have now.
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Letters To No One
PoetryA poetry/journal book for me so I can get my feelings onto somewhere and not drown in them ;) TW: implied suicidal thoughts, body dysmorphia, and possibly others (you've been warned) Don't let other opinions alter your reality Published: Jul 28, 202...
