In The After Life

Chapter 29

When she use to say my name it was enough to bring a smile on my face. Just knowing she was there was enough for me. She meant everything to me. I'd never change a thing about her.

Yet now when she calls my name a cold bitterness settles in my stomach. One that only one other person has ever made me feel. I would never had imagined Evelyn to make me feel how I feel looking at her now. Disgust? Betrayal? Anger? I can't decide

Draven finds my hand and pulls me so he's just in front of me. "Don't look at me like that Vera I'm just making the right decision for everyone so that we can all be safe together." It was like she didn't care to act sorry anymore. The small time I left her was enough for her to correct herself.

There was no more tears in her eyes no more regret. I start to doubt whether she had some to begin with. "Evelyn there's still time to make the right choice. It's never too late. I would have done anything to change the way you felt. If only you told me you were scared and unsure I would've gave you all I had even if it meant I was left with nothing."

I don't think I'd ever be able to feel the way I felt about her. She has broken apart of me I'll never get back. "You never understood me. I always was screaming for you to see me. I want the world to be normal again. I want to help people. I don't want to run or kill anymore. I want you to trust me." He's got her around his finger.

She doesn't know what it's like to run with fear or kill with guilt. She never will. Maybe I didn't see who she really was but I tried my best to. She just didn't see how much I changed myself for her. In one year I stopped the cold blooded killing and violence. I stopped the anger burning within me all for her.

"How am I suppose to trust you when all you give me are excuses? When are you gonna learn that your actions have consequences? If it's me you're angry at that's fine but do You think the others deserve the outcome you're forcing on them? Did you forget what happened last time? He was going to kill them." She looked hurt but still didn't understand the meaning.

"You seem to always have this underlying hate at the world for doing you wrong but I don't see what wrong it did you. It was a misunderstanding which you caused Vera. You told them you'd get them out. You started that feeling of uncertainty in them that they were unsafe. So they did something that put them at risk. He was just trying to scare them into submission. You stabbed him Vera. How could you do that?" words hurt when you let them in. I could stop them from hurting but In a sense I like it.

"If that's how you feel so be it. Your perspective makes me question if you even saw half the pain he caused all of us. You want to be known as his daughter. I won't stop you. He's killed people for far less. I hope you show him loyalty because if you don't I won't be able to save you." The new distaste on my tongue is hard to swallow.

"Save me? I never needed saving. You spent all that effort on him. He's not your blood Vera and if I were you Draven I wouldn't get so comfortable because soon she'll disregard you when you need her the most." It's like she doesn't want to face what she's done.

"Remind yourself where you came from little girl. People like me don't take lightly to spite. You haven't got anyone to protect you anymore." Dravens words sliced with viciousness.

She physically flinched. She was bought up on the decent side of the world. He wasn't and if I wasn't here he would say some things much worse I'm sure. I still had the urge to tell him to not talk to her in that way. "You're always so confident. How long will that last?" her eyes flick to behind us.

It was an action that would be ignored by the average mind but not ours. We both look behind us and I saw the few who tried to hide. Shit the doors are closing. "Hold your head high sister. Don't back out. Own what you're doing. I won't go back willingly." Her eyes widen but this is what she's become. I won't try to protect the truth from her. She can see it for herself.