In The After Life

Chapter 50

My body stood frigid. My mind in a cloud. My ears wouldn't interpret any of the surrounding noise. Not my sisters hard cry. Not my fathers cackling. I wouldn't allow myself to blink. Just a sharp sting mixed with sadness, anger and confusion.

"I bet you didn't see that coming." His hoarse voice was alight with humour as he sways side to side. The growing red that grew around his clothes drained his face of his natural colour. Dravens eyes dull as he tries to comprehend what just happened.

His body fell not able to support it any more. "That's enough Lucius! I told you we needed them alive. Do you know how valuable these kids are?" Dr Lucinda made a sudden appearance not that I took much notice. I only cared about him.

I don't even know how I managed to drag myself over to him but I did. The ground wasn't going to be the last thing he felt. My legs practically gave out on me the minute they stood by him. My arms already greedily reaching out to have him in my arms.

The blood. It was everywhere. I pushed my hand on the wound doing anything to make it stop. Even though my hands shook tremendously I had hope it would make it stop. "No you're going to be okay. Don't worry you'll be fine okay?" My voice cried out as I saw my attempt barely make a difference.

"V..." he was struggling to breath but managed a smile on his face as he looked at me. His head lying on my legs as I wanted him close to me. A hollow ache overcoming my body as I stare at him.

His dark brown curls still wet from the rain but his dimples shone against his pale skin. "Miles I'm here. I'm right here. You're going to be okay. I just have to stop the bleeding." My voice was desperate as I try harder to stop the flow of blood.

His fingers find there way to my hand where he holds them. My eyes never leaving his as he shakes his head. I was desperately seeking some sign that he would fight, that he wouldn't leave me. "It doesn't hurt Vera. You don't have to be scared. I didn't want you to lose the one thing that made you happy."

He coughed a horrible wet sound that left red stained on his lips. "I'm so...so sorry miles. I..I didn't mean for this to happen. Please just fight you're not allowed to give up." I choked out my tears spilling onto his clothes.

"I miss him Vera. He'll be waiting for me. I just wanted to protect you." He moves a piece of my hair his finger tips cold. A stray tear falling down his cheek. I refused to let him. I won't let him leave me.

"You did. You always have. I can't do this without you. Just hold on okay? I'm going to get you help." I look up a new found sense of desperation as I made eye contact with the doctor. Her eyes faltering at my desperate attempt.

"You always were too stubborn for your own good. But..I don't think you can save me this time." His light hearted joke only tore at my heart. I wanted to scream and shout at him for giving up.

"No..you don't get to say goodbye. Please miles don't let him take you away from me. You promised me you wouldn't let him." His eyes flickered as they struggled to stay open. My head falling against his as I see his effort to stay awake.

"I kept my promise even if it wasn't in a way you thought it would be but now you keep yours. You're strong V. Stronger than you know. You always have been. You'll be okay." I could feel his warmth slipping away.

"What about you? You should've never been apart of my life. You would've been happy. You would've been surviving with Gunner. The both of you deserved better." My world was collapsing. I had lost so much. He was the one person I didn't want to do this without.