GOD HAS SPOKEN Series: Book 5: I Hope If You Ever Hear my Name...

Useless, no hope...

I'm afraid I will not be here much or at all from now on. I am forced to take over 18 tranquilising tablets a day...... forced. I am in bed for over half the day everyday. I go to sleep for the night at 6pm. Yesterday and the day before I was awake for 3 hours, today 3 so far and I hope at least 4 hours or even five... I'm trying to stay awake for the postman and the ambulance (and the police??) to come with my prescription, and i hope, gifts that i've put on my shopping list on Amazon and Temu that i've asked my accountant to please buy for me and send with the postman. I'm done writting. I cannot Pray. I can barely write this. It is a struggle. very, very, very difficult to even get a word down. I cannot study. I cannot read. I cannot even pick up my Holy Bible to read God's word. I cannot work on books, I cannot work on Jesus Speaks, I cannor write poems, parables or prayers. It was very challenging just to pick up a pen and write a shopping list yesterday. 

Until i have medicine, i will not be online and I cannot possibly - its impossible to - upload the next book onto neobook. The story has stopped incompleted, until further news of medicine and gifts, and all being well, God willing, leaving the "CHNP" but i would be happy with jus the medicien until saved, only now we cannot find my laptop cable. I will be online untill 2:30pm. I cannot do anything online aside from press the enter cutton for buying things on amazon.... I've exeeded 5,000 euros now, so will stop. 

I do believe thismorning the post man was picking up the last pokemon cards and MTG cards and albums and sleeves.I hope that now he is on his way. That is all i can say. 

Goodbye, and i'm sorry, it has always been this way.