Me feeling very depressed....

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Just got back from pizza hut. Went with Caitlin and "pamela". "pamela" was really lovely this time, as was Caitlin. I'll tell you more soon but I am shattered and will now go to bed until the next morning - its 6pm. I cannot wake up, I cannot wake up, I cannot wake up. I just wanted to tell the sos that I will not be speaking to them again. They say iˋ'm ugly. They say, "her hair has been cut short...shorter on one side than the other...she has a slight double chin...her hair is messy...she has no nice clothes...shes pregant.. (they said it like an insult, like iˋ'm fat...) she has no real make up...she looks terrible...she looks terrible...she needs an entirely new makeover." iˋm really hurt. My guardian Angel asked them if they really DID send a single damn thing to the police and hospitals yesterday, "no... wait..." he said, "I refuse for her to speak to you. You gave her your word yesterday." they said iˋd get back to a prescription and a court order... and i got back... nothing...nothing at all, "You havenˋt sent anything, have you."... they didnˋt reply, just proceeded to call me uglier than life. They wont send anything. Iˋ'm going to bed now. they wont help. i donˋt want them to come to save me - i need the court order sent so that i can leave myself —- they will think iˋ'm fat and ugly. Nobody loves me. nobody cares. goodnight. untill tomorrow. amen. no hope. no kindness. no truth. nothing.

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