Castles Crumbling | S. Stilinski

75| Stiles, don't go

"You've had it pretty rough here.."

I throw an energy blast at the target, not bothering to look at Bella. My life has been far from normal. There's been so many losses in my life. I feel like I'm being constantly beaten down. I can never catch a break.

"It's been far from a cake walk.. I'll tell you that."

"Your anger is strong."

"It started when you died."

"What happened?"

My throat starts to close in. It's been so long since I actually thought about that night. The events were put into place by the Blackthorns.

"An ambush.. I thought it was retaliation for Emma but I was wrong." I say. "It was because of me."

"You can't say it was your fault."

"She would've never been in that situation if it wasn't for me." I say. "The Blackthorns knew our bond would destroy me and that's what it did."

I turn around and look at her.

"Is my mom alive here?"

"Was she not on yours?"

She shakes her head.

"She died fighting Wanda.. I begged her not to go on that mission because I knew she wouldn't win."

"I'm sorry."

She shrugs. It still hurts her. I'd carry that weight with me for the rest of my life if I was her. Losing a parent in that way seems devastating.

"Are you ready to talk to Scott?"

It's been a couple days since Eichen. We haven't talked. I've been actively avoiding him in the house. Normally I'd take his advice and just leave but I promised myself I wouldn't. Last time I left Allison died. I'm not making the same mistake.

I throw a portal and we both walk through it. I go straight to my room, shocked to see Stiles sitting on my bed. I quickly shut my door.

"What the hell are you doing in here?"

"I just needed.. to talk to someone who actually understands me."

I sit on my vanity chair.

"Are you gonna tell me what's on your shoulder?"

He looks at me. He's not shocked I know. I can practically feel his pain. He's trying to mask it and everyone believes it but not me.

"The other night Donovan attacked me." He says. "I.."

"You don't have to say it." I know it's probably hard for him. "Let me see it."

He lifts up his shirt and I walk towards him. I hover my hand over the wound and it starts to heal. I take a step back after it completely heals.

We look at each other, not saying anything. I hate how much, even now, I still care about him. I've made mistakes in my life but loving him was never one.

"You took the cure."

"You know I never wanted to become a vampire.. much less a werewolf." I say. "I honestly wanted to take the cure before I knew I'd still be a witch."

"I know."

I force a smile. I was willing to give it all up for him and I almost did.

"But now I can be what Strange always knew I could be.. a hero. Despite my past I can do good things in this world."

He slowly nods. I know this is hard for everyone. There's so many things going on at once. I'm preparing for my goodbyes in several months, despite how much I don't want to.

"What Scott said-"

"Is true." I interrupt. "I killed innocent people that I can never take back but I don't regret killing any of the Blackthorns. I stand by my choice because it was my only choice."

"He'll get over it."

He will. I don't take it to heart because I know we'll get past it.

"I should probably-"

"Don't go."

He looks at me. He feels normal. His presence feels normal in this time of confusion.

"Stiles, don't go."

He sits back down and I go sit beside him.