The sinners secret. {radioapple}

🍎chapter 27🍎

(Lucis pov)

"You what..but I thought you liked living here.." charlie says.
"I do. But..This would benefit the hotel, and it's not like we'll NEVER see eachother. I'll still go pick flowers with you every Friday."
She looks down at her plate.
"Me and Al could run the second hotel, and then there would not only be more space, but we'd be expanded which could bring in even more people. Maybe even hellborns. They ALL deserve a chance.."
"Yeah.."
Vaggie takes charlies hand. "Maybe this is the right choice. Even if its hard."
I look at Al, he's kept an extra eye on me since I got home. Like he's always watching. Stressing himself out to make sure I don't get hurt again. But I am always hurt..broken..just on the inside. I haven't said much about it. Although he has a good idea of what happened. We haven't very active in the bedroom. I know he doesn't mind that. But I've avoided giving him blood because to me it's apart of it.
I can't even look in the mirror without a reminder..thanks to the cut on my lips.
"Okay. Lets do it." Charlie says.
"You sure?" I ask.
She nods. "We'll still see eachother.."

After dinner Al and I went to our spot in pride forest. We go there quite a bit, just to be in the quiet peaceful atmosphere. Something hell usually isn't.
I am layed on his chest as hes laying in the grass.
"Lu.."
"Yeah..?" I mumble.
"Can you tell me what really happened..you know.."
I sit up and look at him.
"Uhm.." I swallow hard and look down at his chest, fidgeting with a button on his suit.
"Please amour."
"Everyday..it was oatmeal..and he left until he felt like bugging me..or if..I did something wrong. He'd cut into me.." I pause. I feel tears start to form. "And he'd tell me..all i'm good for is my power and blood. Thats all you want. He said."
I can't go on.
I let the tears flow.
"Baby..you know thats not true.."
"No..I know..but then he'd chain me to the bed..and I would just have to take it..I could barely stay awake with those chains..not that even wanted too.."
He holds me, and i cry into his chest.
"I wasn't sure what day it was...when it was coming..if you were going to get me out..i just wanted the next blink to be the last.."
"Is this why we haven't taken things farther."
I frown.
"Lu.."
"I just..feel guilty.."
"You were a victim. You have no reason to feel that way. It happens. All that matters is your safe."
He pulls me up as he sits up, holding me in his lap.
I readjust, wrapping my legs around his waist.
"Dont sulk in the old memories, we will make better ones."
I look at him.
"What do you mean..?"
His lips meet mine and I panic, but he doesn't continue, he pulls away and looks at me. Like hes studying my mind by how I react.
He pulls me in this time not touching just yet.
"I love you lu." He whispers, his breath hitting my lips.
I wanna kiss him back. But I don't want to get hurt.
"Al...I can't.."
"You can. And you have all the time in hell to make the move you want to make."
I take a shaky breath and look him in his eyes.
Just do it Lucifer..you've kissed him dozens of times before..
I lean in and start the kiss, hes gentle and slow as he kisses back..I'm scared. But he doesn't go any farther than this..
I pull away and look at him.
He slides a hand down to my waist, not breaking eye contact.
"Can I?" He asks.
"Right here-?"
"Lu you know nobody else comes here.."
I swallow and nod slowly.
His hand slips under my shirt, his other unbuttoning it, slow and steady. Not breaking eye contact once.
I tense at the feeling of his fingers touching my stomach.
"A-al- i cant-..i-i-"
"Lu..look at me. Focus on me."
My breathing gets shaky as I look at him.
"I'm scared.." I mumble.
"I'm not going to hurt you. You know that. Don't let your mind tell you differently."
I keep my eyes locked on his as he caresses my chest, up and down slowly.
My breathing begins to even out.
"Safe word is apple. If you can't go any further thats all you say. Okay?"
I nod. His fingers continue to slide up and down my chest before he leans in and gently kisses my neck.
His gentle kisses run up to my jawline, then back down my neck, then my collar bone.
He lays me back on the grass, leaning down and hovering over my lips.
I lean in and start the kiss.
Thats all he does is kiss me.
Gentle.
Slow.
Kisses.
His hand slides down my waist and onto my hip.
I pull from the kiss with a gasp.
I want this. I really do. But I'm scared.
"Look at me dear." He says.
I do as he asks and he holds eye contact for a moment. I feel safe. Loved. But scared.
His finger slides under my waistband.
"Do I have permission to go further."
I swallow hard, but nod.

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