The sinners secret. {radioapple}

🍎chapter 36🍎

(Lucifers pov)

I slowly open my eyes, sitting up slightly.
"Lay back down, darling."
"What-?" I mumble.
"Just lay down. You passed out. Which means some sort of magic is harmful to you if you get the full truth.."
I lay back against the headboard.
"I'm fine tho..really.."
"Babe..just relax."
I look down at my hands as Al sits down on the edge of the bed.
How could michael do this to me..
A memory barrier because I was with Al?
Or was it me..
It's always me..

He climbs up next to me and I cuddle up close to him. "I don't know what happened..I was put under a spell and told I was in a coma for the time I had been on earth. But why."
"Dear I really don't think you should be stressing about that..just rest and we'll consult sera next time you have to go to heaven for a meeting."
Thats a month away.
I climb on top of him, hugging him.
I rest my head on his shoulder.
"Clingy." He mumbles as his finger goes up and down my back.
"Shush. You know you love it."
"Yeah. I love you."
"I love you too."

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I look down at the ground, holding my balcony rail so tight my knuckles have turned white.
Last time I was up here I was standing on this exact rail.
I should've jumped when I had the chance.
I feel miserable.
My body feels drained.
And it's hard to feel anything anymore.
I want to know the truth of what happened.
Why my memory was taken.
Why I was lied to.
Why Charlie was involved.
I fucking hate this.

I climb onto the railing again, my wings stretching out.
"Darling-" Al stops in the door way.
"I'll be back."
I jump down, flying off.
I dont know where I'm going, or why.
I just am.
It feels..
Nice.