Ugh You again~

Journaling

It had been a week since the argument with Blackfire, and I still couldn't get her out of my head. Every time I saw her at school, my chest tightened. I kept my distance, ignoring her, but it was harder than I thought it would be. I was in love with her, but after our fight, I didn't know how to approach her again.

I sat in my room, staring at my phone. I wanted to text her, to apologize, to explain. But every time I started to type, I deleted the message. What if she didn't want to hear from me? What if I made things worse?

My mind wandered back to the night of the festival. I had been so jealous seeing her with Kuroo. It infuriated me how close they seemed. The thought of her with someone else made my blood boil. And then I went and said those awful things to her. I regretted every word, but my pride wouldn't let me admit it.

I grabbed my notebook and started jotting down thoughts, hoping it would help clear my mind.

Journal Entry: Tsukishima's Thoughts

Why am I like this? Why do I always push people away? Blackfire... she doesn't deserve this. She's strong, confident, and so much more than I ever gave her credit for.

I remember the first time I saw her. She was with Tate, her friend who liked me. I didn't pay much attention to her then, but over time, she caught my eye. The way she carried herself, her determination, her kindness... it all drew me in.

But I screwed it up. Our arguments, my jealousy, it all got in the way. I hate that I hurt her. I hate that she's hurting because of me.

I want to fix this. I need to fix this. But how? How do I make things right when I don't even know how to talk to her anymore?

I sighed, closing the notebook. I knew what I had to do, but I didn't know if I had the courage to face her. The thought of her with someone else, especially Kuroo, twisted my insides. I needed to tell her how I felt, but I didn't want to come off as desperate or insincere.

I lay back on my bed, staring at the ceiling, lost in thought. I had to find a way to make things right, to show her that I cared. But for now, all I could do was hope that she'd give me another chance.