Doors open.

THEOS POV- Its all for you.

There she was.

Out of breath from running, her hair was tousled, cheeks flushed, and her chest heaving.

Even in this disarray, she was beautiful.

Her eyes were wide, a mix of shock and something else I couldn't quite place—fear, perhaps? "How fucking could you?" she exclaimed, breathless.

Her voice sliced through the air, and I felt the world shift around us.

"Oh cmon, darling. You didn't have any clue?" I stepped closer.

Her eyes were glassing over, she was shaking.

Fuck.

"I never thought you were capable of doing this to me." her voice cracking just enough to reveal her vulnerability beneath the anger.

But I kept inching closer to her, until I was right in front of her.

Until she had to bend her neck to look up at me.

"I didn't know how else to do it." I whispered, brushing a hair from her face.

The moment my fingers grazed her skin, she shuddered, and I could see it—the tug-of-war within her, her fighting between anger and something softer beneath the layers of hurt.

"Not this way, Theodore." She threw herself as far back as she could.

She was trying to get away from me.

"Don't do this, yn." I stepped closer.

"Don't come closer, I mean it!" She  raised her voice, still shaken and broken.

A ragged breath escaped her lips, and the flicker of fear in her eyes cut deeper than I could have imagined.

"How else was I supposed to tell you I was in love with you?!" My  volume meant hers.

I didn't mean to shout.

It was...

It was just all too much.

It slipped out.

After years, hearing myself say those words.

Out loud.

"Maybe don't send me pictures of me sleeping?! Of me with Mattheo?! Threatening my secret? Theo! What the fuck?!" She started gasping for air, "I fucking trusted you with my entire life! And this is what you do?!"

Every word was like a blade, slicing through the tension between us, exposing the rawness of her pain and the depth of how what I did affected her.

I stepped back instinctively, the weight of her accusation crashing over me like a tidal wave.

"I never planned on doing it this way!" my voice almost slipped, "I came into your room to get something I left on Pansy's side, and I seen you two! I thought you were just fucking. I didn't think it was serious! So I wanted to scare you into breaking it off with him. It became clear you weren't going too. And I didn't know how to react to that! So I kept it up."

"So you terrorize me?! I couldn't sleep! You held me while I was terrified!" She was sobbing now, "I was fucking loosing my self!"

Fuck.

What did I do?!

What did I do to her?

I didn't mean to...

"I felt horrible!" My breath started to catch, "you don't think I felt terrible?!"

She said, nothing.