Back Together ~ pt 2

❤︎︎ Three ❤︎︎

We went home after the race weekend. Lando came 2nd so he got to take home a trophy and I was gonna treat him with food. He was still obsessed with my brisket so I got home and started working on it. Lando was asleep for the whole of the Monday that I was cooking the brisket. Eventually he woke up and was literally following his nose.

"Mmmm, that smells amazing, baby!" He said. I couldn't help but laugh slightly as I cut off a piece and fed it to him

"Does it taste alright?"

"Oh god, Lexi, you are a culinary genius! This is incredible! How do you make it so tender and flavorful?"

"just lots of spices and the right amount of heat"

"Well, you've certainly mastered it. This is the best brisket I've ever had"

"well I promised I'd make it for you every week that were at home so enjoy it"

"And I promise to keep enjoying every bite of it"

"I'm just glad you love my cooking. I would have murdered you else"

"You wouldn't dare, my love. Besides, I'm too charming to ever be murdered. But seriously, your cooking is one of the many reasons why I adore you"

"awww, Lan. You make me blush so much sometimes"

"Stop it, you cutie. You know you drive me crazy with that sweet talk" he said as quickly pressed his lips on mine. I put the brisket on his plate and he was already eating it like crazy

"eat all you want, baby"

"Mmmm, this is perfect. Thank you, my love"

"as long as you're happy" I said. I left him to it. I didn't feel like eating. I was having one of those days again. Lando got up and pulled me back to the kitchen island.

"Come on, my love. Eat something too. You deserve it"

"I'm too overweight to eat right now..."

"Don't say that. You're perfect just the way you are. But I still want you to eat something. Please?"

"I don't know... I don't wanna get overweight" I said as he lifted my shirt slightly and kissed just above my navel and held my thin waist.

"You're not overweight, my love. You're just right for me. Now come on, eat something small. I promise not to let you get fat"

"but anything I eat will make me fat..."

"Don't worry, sweetheart. I'll make sure you stay healthy and beautiful... and a little curvy, of course. Just for me. Now come on, eat something"

"no... I'll get fat..."

"You won't get fat, my love. I promise. And even if you did, I'd still think you were beautiful. Now please, eat something for me?"

"I can't... I'll gain weight..."

"Come on, my love. You know I wouldn't ask you to do something that would harm you. Your health is important to me. But so is your happiness. And part of your happiness comes from sharing a meal with me. Please, baby?"

"but I'll gain weight and then lose my modelling job and then get overweight like I did as a teen and I'll keep gaining weight from comfort eating and then you won't wanna be with me and-" I rambled before he cut me off and pressed his lips on mine to stop me talking and then he slowly pulled away and cupped my face in his hand while stroking my cheek

"Hey, listen to me. I love you just the way you are. I wouldn't want anyone else but you. And I know that weight gain won't change that"

"but it will ruin my life..."

"No, it won't. It might change some things, but it won't ruin your life. And it definitely won't change the way I feel about you. Now, come on. Eat something for me?"

"I can't..."

"You can, and you will. Because I'm asking you to. And when we finish eating, we'll go for a walk or do some yoga or whatever makes you feel good about yourself. But first, please eat something?"

"I can't do it..."

"You can, my love. And you will. Because I love you too much to let you starve yourself like this"

"I can't... it's too much... I can't eat any... I can't do it..."

"Okay, let's start small. Just a few bites of this. And then we'll take it slow from there. But please, don't shut me out like this"

"I can't... it's gonna make me fat..."

"I promise you, my love. It won't. Now please, eat something for me?" He said. I shook my head with my leg shaking as I looked at the food

"Look, I know this is hard for you. But I'm here with you every step of the way. And if it does make you gain weight, we'll deal with that together too"

"I can't risk it..."

"You can, my love. Trust me. And remember, I'm here for you no matter what. Let's start with a few bites, okay?" He said as he put a little bit on his fork

"I can't..."

"You can, my love. And you will. Because I love you too much to let you starve yourself like this. Just take a bite for me?" He said. I shook my head again but he pulled my bottom lip down and put the piece in my mouth but I couldn't swallow it. I couldn't do it. Tears were literally filling my eyes. "Shhh, my love. It's okay. Just try to swallow. You can do it" he said. I kept shaking my head. My body literally wouldn't let me swallow it. "Baby, I know this is hard for you. But you have to trust me on this. You're not going to starve yourself, okay?" He said. I looked down at the floor and finally swallowed it before breaking down in his arms. "That's my girl. I know it was hard, but you did it. You're so strong, baby. Now let's eat some more, okay?" He said. I shook my head again

"I can't..."

"I know, love. But we don't have to eat it all at once. We can take our time and enjoy every bite together. How about you try a bit more?"

"I can't... I'm already gonna get fat from the piece I just ate..."

"You're not going to get fat, baby. You're perfect just the way you are. And besides, this is good for you. It's healthy food. Now come on, let's try a little more together"

"I am... I'm gonna get fat..."

"You're not, love. Trust me. Look at me. I'm not fat, am I? And I promise I'll always love you no matter what. So let's take another small bite together?" He said. I shook my head again and I went to the couch and covered myself with my blanket. I was so stressed and it wasn't just about the food. It was about way more than the food. Way way more than the food.