I died that day at the hospital. I died in every way but physically.
But loosing you that day, made me feel like I died in all ways. Body and soul. As if you were the oxygen filling my lungs. I should be laying here with you, because I'm not a person anymore.
I am only grief.
I died that day, in all the ways that matters. If it weren't for our daughter, I'd be 6 feet down. Being with her. However, I can't. I can't leave Gwyn.
It's been what now? 3 months, 3 months since the light of my life died. She's 6 feet under, so close but so far away. I can't remember when I last had a shower, or when I last ate. I've left Gwyn with Sam and Charles for the time being, they still come by. Everyday. It's been 3 months, and I can't look at her. I can't look my own child in the eyes without falling apart.
I just, I just miss her. And everything hurts. Have i gone mad? Is this it? The part where i no longer can move my body, unable to make my
lungs breath. Unable to do anything but cry? It feels like I've gone mad. Like nothing can pull me back up to the surface. But in the back of my mind someone is telling me to fight, to not leave my child alone in this mad world. They all say the same, it'll be easier. Give it time, take time to grieve. But I didn't plan to lose her, not now. All say the same, all but my therapist whom I've been seeing for a short time, and he told
me that some people handle grief by talking to the dead person that as if they were still here. But all I want to know is, how can I live without her?
She was lightning, and I was struck by her.
So, what happens after Dawn?
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Teen FictionIs it better to speak or to die? Dawn has always been quiet when it comes to her feelings. She never told anyone what happened that night, not until she met him. Cam, her knight in shining armour. But can there truly be a happily ever after? After a...
