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The car ride was mostly silent.

The two kept to themselves despite talking just a few minutes ago.

Soobin smoothly parked the car

Since the incident, the two of them found themselves in a rare moment of solitude. The weight of everything that had happened hung heavy in the air as they sat in silence, each lost in their own thoughts. Time seemed to stretch out endlessly.

Soobin had spent countless hours deciding over his words, planning each sentence in his mind. Over the past 5 days, he thought he knew exactly what he wanted to say. However, as he sat before Yeonjun, his confidence wavered, and he found himself choking up with fear.

He knew the most reasonable thing Yeonjun would say is to pretend it never happened. He hated himself for how disappointed it made him feel, but it was the right thing to do. He only hoped their friendship could at least survive. Was that too much to ask? Could he even be “just friends” with Choi Yeonjun anyway?

“Do you regret it?” Yeonjun suddenly asked, springing Soobin out of his thoughts.

Did he regret it? Yes and no.

“It doesn’t matter if I do. The thing is that it happened.”

Yeonjun slowly nodded. “Then we can pretend it never happened. For our sake…and Kara’s.”

For our sake. For Kara’s sake.

The words echo in the air and suck the life out of Soobin. His mind couldn’t stop thinking of Kara. Since when had anything been for Kara’s sake? He’s always wanted to protect her from the men she dates. Yet here he was, selfishly lusting for her new boyfriend, discussing their cheating behind her back. This was the man she believed could be “the one”. And Soobin just took that away from her.

“…No,” Soobin mumbled. How could he ever live with himself? Keeping this a secret just so he could remain normal with his sister? He tossed that option out the moment he started liking her boyfriend.

“No? …You don’t want to?”

He faced himself to Yeonjun, looking at him face to face. Taking in the striking resemblance of his cat-like eyes and his delicate, doll-like lips. His nose, straight and strong and—

Soobin straightened himself, holding his chin up high. This was seriously not the time.

“I like you.”

Yeonjun’s eyes widened, jaw dropped.

“I’m sorry. I know how that might seem, but I do. I like you so much that I hate myself. I hate that it had to be you that makes me feel this way. If I could get rid of these feelings, I would, because I know how much my si—“ Soobin cleared his throat. “I do regret the kiss, and I regret liking you, but at the same time, I want you. It’s like I know it’s wrong, but I can’t help it. You know?”

Yeonjun stayed silent. His lips slightly twitched as he looked puzzled on what to say.

“Please say something.”

Yeonjun smiled sadly. “I feel the same way, but it’s…”

“I know.” Soobin wanted to smile, hearing Yeonjun admitting he felt the same, but instead, he huffed. “It’s…complicated.”

They both nodded, understanding.

Soobin sighed. “I know I gave you a lot of shit in the beginning because of Kara’s past. It’s just… You don’t know how much of an ass I feel for being like that yet doing this behind her back. I think we should tell her. No, I mean, we need to. Kara is my big sister. I love her so much. She doesn’t deserve this shit. So, I don’t care what it is you want to say or do. For my sister, we are going to tell her. And you’re going to break up with her because we’re piece of shits.”

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