Dollface

Part 50

S: Because I couldn't kill her.

The color drains from my face as it drips in horror, my blood suddenly goes cold. The words leave his mouth deep and honest, I felt lifeless, I felt horrified, catatonic, stunned and every other possible word that describes complete shock.

The beating of my heart hammers against my ribcage so hard I could hear it pounding in my ears and it feels like I've been hit with a needle right in my chest.

J: How long do you plan on running away with Mr. Gates' daughter?

Johnny asks in a low voice, the burning in my eyes not allowing me to stay strong and only the lump in my throat encourages warm tears to flow from my eyes.

S: As long as it fucking takes. I didn't do what Adam told me, so what? They both knew as well as I did that I would be killed by one of them eventually!

Adam... I hate that name, and I hate it, really well, Wait! OH SHIT-

J: Exactly Simon! And you choose to get killed?

There was a painful silence that filled not only the room I leaned my ear against, but the walls surrounding me felt like they would collapse until someone spoke.

S: We spent most of our lives figuring out how Mr. Gates moves, how Adam wanted us to. We spent years learning his tricks and his way of thinking. Years gaining his trust so we could take him over. I don't care if I die, so much of my life has been turned to shit anyway, why carry on?

Hearing him say something so horrible without a hint of hesitation or pain made my chest constrict.

Z: You're crazy, when did Adam give you the order to kill Isa?
S: Ever since Mr. Gates hired me to protect them...fuck! My real job was to kill them and every chance I got, I fucking turned it down!!

Simon's voice was very frustrated, as well as confused. He chokes on his words, holding back the emotions he knew all too well how to hide. He keeps so much of his emotions bottled up, which is never the right way to go because it always ends in disaster.

At the end of the day, your emotions get closer and closer to overflowing until you burst into an emotional explosion, you fucking break into a million pieces that would take a lifetime to put back together. I know because I lived it...

S: And when I turned her down, Adam sent his damn men to try to kill us both. I pretended I'd lost contact with Mr. Gates and him in Brazil, but that never fixed anything!

The more Simon speaks, revealing the truth about all the lies he told me, the more tears stream down my heated cheeks, I sniffle quietly and lean further against the wall, mouth still covered by my two shaking hands.

J: I'm so done with this, what are we going to do if Mr. Gates or Adam come to hunt us down?
S: Just say you actually had nothing to do with it, leave. I'll handle it myself.
Z: Simom, they're going to kill you. Whoever finds you first.

Z insists, her footsteps loud enough to be heard as she paces the room.

S: I KNOW!!

Simom snaps angrily, so loudly that I flinched and stumbled back slightly.

S: You think I didn't think about it?!

He exhales loudly and pauses for a moment to remember his anger.

S: Hopefully it's Isa's father, so she'll be in safe hands then...
Z: I understand that, but he knows we betrayed him, that we've been working for the other mafia this whole time.
S: That's why you two have to leave and go back to Adam. Pretend you never saw me.
J: It's obvious you upset me, Simon, but you're the closest to my family...