F A D I N G M E M O R I E S; {JACOB BLACK}

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Vera Elle Volant

I sat thinking to myself as I wiped my face with the sleeve of my hoodie.

"How did you know?"

 "I found out the first few weeks you got here. But you know that was your parent's secret." 

I looked over at him knowing he was right but I was still so fucking angry. Angry at my mom, my dad, Landon, but most importantly at myself. I knew I should've told him.

 I didn't want any of this to happen this way.

"Paul asked me too. I did him the favor because he wanted reassurance. When Arabella's mom passed she was upset with her dad for not coming to her side."

"Y-Yeah, now he's actually here only to find out he was having more fucking kids. I guess Karma's real. I mean look at me I'm the one dying now," I slightly chuckled at the end as my eyes got teary. I still couldn't believe that he knows everything.

"Don't say that. Theres still a way to help you, V." 

"Yeah but what makes you think after they find out about their dead-beat dad they'll be willing to help me."     

"Vera you know Aria, she would do anything to help her friends...in this case sister." I breathed out as I looked outside the window. The rain continued pouring but harder now. 

I was deep in my thought when I remembered I never did apologize. 

For lying and breaking his heart.

"Jacob...I'm so sorry about everything. The lying and breaking up with you." 

I could hear my heart beating faster as I fidgeted with my ring. 

"The part I don't get is why did you break up with me so suddenly. Its like after that day you came over, you were a whole different person." He pressed on the brake as he turned to look at me.

 "If I tell you promise you won't get made at her, because it was my decision to go through with it." "Her?...... P-Please tell me this doesn't have to do with Rachel." 

I turned my body to face him as I leaned my head on the seat.

"It does. That day I came over and I was helping out I went outside and she followed me, but before I could say anything... she kinda slapped me." 

"'Are you serious?! Fucking Rachel unbelievable," he shook his head side to side as he pressed his forehead against the steering wheel. "She told me you were still going through a tough time with your mom and if I wanted to see you happy it wouldn't be with me. Seeing me sick would only make me a burden to you." 

"Vera please tell me you still don't  believe that." "I do, Jake." 

"Your not. If you had told me before I would still be here because I loved you, and I still do."

He stepped off the brake as he continued driving. "I do too." 

I looked out the window as he finally pulled into a driveway. "Whose house is this?" "Mine."

"W-Wait, you have a house?!"

 "Yeah, let's go." I slowly stepped out of the truck as I shortly followed behind holding my stuff. "Are you sure? This feels... wrong." He reached for his keys as he turned to look at me.

 "Vera please I'll carry you in if I have to." I smiled as he smiled back at me. That moment in the car earlier kept replaying in my head. We basically said I love you too each other now I have to act like its normal.... Fuck this is weird. 

He opened the door as he turned the lights on. This house it was a cabin but not like your average one. It had high ceilings with a second floor. "Your house it's beautiful," I said as I looked around as he turned on the fireplace.

 I slowly followed behind him as he sat on the couch. "Come on Vera I don't bite." I let out a small chuckle as I gave in and sat next to him. "So did you decorate all this by yourself?" 

"Rach helped me," he said as he turned his body towards me. "Thats nice." I nodded as I really needed this to distract me from all the shit at home. "You do know I'm going to talk to her about it." 

"I don't have to be there do I?" "Only if you want to." "I think I have plenty much to deal with at home." "So what are you going to do? You know I won't let you not do nothing." I laid my head on the couch as I looked at him. 

"I want to help myself but I don't even know where to start anymore. I-I had hope that I'd be Landon but its all messy now." I could feel my voice tremble as I closed my eyes. Before I let Jacob talk I whispered, "I messed up with Landon. I know I shouldn't have said that b-but....I was just so angry." 

I brought my knees to my chest as I felt a warm hand on my face. I opened my eyes as he swept a tear off my face with his thumb. "We were all angry but he knows you don't really feel that way." "Thank you," I said as I held his hand in mine. 

"What am I gonna do with you?" I could feel a small smile creep as I tried not to. 

"Did I also mess this up?" I found the courage as I looked at him, he continued to caress my hand with his thumb as he finally looked back at me.

"It feels like we both messed things up in different ways, but one thing I do know is that I want you in my life.......It's not too late?" 

"Ive missed you and I want to try this again with no secrets?" 

"Yeah, you know I messed up by letting you go so fast. I shouldn't have let you leave without me fighting for us." "I'm here now," I said as he got closer. I leaned my head on his shoulder as he kissed my forehead. 

He moved back as he whispered, "I missed this." 

I stared into his eyes as I smiled.