Volcano | Bangchan

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I quickly exited the house and stood next to the front door for a few minutes. The cool wind was calming my nerves. I couldn't believe what had just happened. Was he lying this whole time ? Did he actually feel something ? But then, why didn't he say it ? Why did he pretend it was all a mistake ? Why did he make me believe we were friends and nothing more ? I was pacing back and forth, trying to collect myself. None of this should matter. It wasn't important. I was slowly but surely getting over him, and it was a good thing. I didn't want to go back there. Our story, or whatever it was, was in the past. I should look at the present. And right now, I wanted to be happy with a man who was ready to be with me. And even if I had no idea what Seokmin wanted to tell me, I couldn't help but think that maybe he was the one that could be good for me. I took a deep breath, put the past event aside, and joined Seok.

The boy was swinging on the portico, deeply lost in thoughts. I approached and stood in front of him, my hands behind my back. He was so far gone that he didn't notice me. I fake a cough to draw his attention. As soon as he heard me, he stood up abruptly and smiled, a bit embarrassed. "Sorry.". I giggled at his cuteness. I took the swing next to his and started swinging. I closed my eyes for a moment, enjoying the silence mixed with the cool air. Dokyeom noticed I wasn't in my normal state. He wanted to change my mind, to distract me from what was bothering me. He sat back on his own swing and looked at me with a huge grin : "Let's do a contest. The one who goes the highest.". I chuckled. "You think you can beat me ?". He challenged me with a smirk : "Wanna bet ?". I was always up for some innocent competition. "Okay. We have 30 seconds to go the highest. What do you wanna bet ?". He seemed to think for a moment before looking back at me, his eyes shining with a slight glimpse of mischief. "If you lose, you'll have to kiss me.". I almost fell off my swing. I looked at him, trying to find out if I heard this right. He was holding my gaze, a shy smile on his face. He was dead serious.

I smiled, somehow ready for the challenge : "Okay.". I didn't give him time to realize I accepted the bet. I set the chrono on my watch. "3... 2... 1... GO !". We swung with all our strength, laughing and yelling as we were going higher and higher. At the end of the timer, I was on the verge of swinging around the portico. He jumped from his swing and let himself fall on the grass in a dramatic fall. I was laughing so hard, I jumped too and raised my arms in a victory pose. "I WIN !". He was laughing at our stupid contest, but I could tell he was a bit disappointed. In a way, he was also relieved. He made me forget about that thing that was bothering me. I stood in front of him and handed him my hands to help him stand up. He stood up but didn't let go of my hands. He made a small smile and teased : "And I lost. No kiss for me, I guess.".

I looked at him with a big smile and took the opportunity. My mind was settled. I stood on my tiptoes and smashed my lips on his. He froze at first but quickly kissed me back. It was delicate, it felt perfect. I had butterflies in my stomach, and my legs felt like jelly. That sealed my decision. I wanted to kiss this man, and not only once. I wanted him. As we parted away, he put his forehead against mine. He stuttered : "Wow... I – I thought I had lost the bet.". I giggled : "But I never said what I wanted to do if I won.". He smiled brightly and put a hand on my cheek. "Can't believe you tricked me. Does it mean that...?" I looked at him, shyly smiling : "It means that I like you. And I truly hope that you wanted to tell me this too. Because if not, it would be really embarrassing.". "Well, I wasn't exactly planning on telling you I liked you...". OH MY GOD. I misunderstood ! I lowered my head, not wanting to face him. He lightly raised my chin : "I was about to ask you this : Sooki, please be my girlfriend. I've had feelings for you for so long. I can't wait any longer.".

It was my turn to smile brightly. "Yes, Seokmin, I would love to be your girlfriend.". He took me in his arms and swung me around as I laughed with my whole heart. He put me down and kissed me more passionately this time. I was happy, like genuinely happy. Everything will be okay with him by my side. I had never felt this important. I felt loved. I felt important. I felt all the things I should have felt. He took my hand, smiling at me like I was his light in the dark. "Now I can call you Love with you understanding that I truly mean it.". He took me in his arms. I closed my eyes and melted in his embrace. I opened my eyes a few seconds later, and saw someone on the balcony, observing us. I couldn't see who it was because of the dark. Without knowing why, I felt my heart aching.