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Little attention

As we planned, everyone left the apartment to give me space. They told the boys I was sick and had to take the week off. As to explain why Nomi was with them for the whole week and why they couldn't come to take care of me, they said it was contagious. Simple. And just like that, I had my time to ease my sorrow. 

Honestly, it was hard. Seokmin randomly popped in my mind whenever I was distracting myself. Everything reminded me of him, of us. Even the simple things like cooking or watching movies made me think of him, of how much I wished he was there with me. But the boys were making sure to cheer me up even if they weren't by my side. Seungmin kept me in touch with all the news and sent me random videos of the boys goofing around. Han called me every day, just to listen to music or to talk together. Nomi FaceTimed me a few times too, to make sure I was doing okay. But I didn't reply much to the others, especially Chan. He sent me a few texts, but I replied with a single word each time. I hadn't yet thought about what to do with our whole relationship, and to be honest, I wasn't ready to do so.

You know, when you recover from a break-up, there are some ups and downs. I was doing better, but on that Thursday night, everything crashed. I decided to cook a meal, my first one in days. As I was a bit happy, I even decided to put my playlist on the speaker. But suddenly, that song played. And the wall I built crashed in a blink of an eye. It was Fall in Love from Jeong Sewoon, the op from the K-drama King the Land. After watching this serie together, Seokmin used to sing me this song because he noticed how emotional it made me feel. 

As the song kept playing, the tears started to fall. I slowly crouched on the floor, my back against the counter. I couldn't help but cry my heart out.

I thought I was doing better. I missed him so much. It hurt so bad. Please make it stop. I took my phone, opened the contact, and scrolled until I found what I was looking for. I pressed the button, and the nickname appeared : Handsome. I didn't dare to change his name. I looked at the photo attached : it was a photo of him I took during one of our midnight walks along Han's river. He was leaning on the railing, smiling brightly. God, he was beautiful. I couldn't think rationally anymore. I just wanted to hear his voice, I just wanted to tell him I missed him. I wanted to call him and hear his warm voice to ease my pain. I wanted him to hug me and tell me everything was gonna be okay. I wanted him to tell me he loved me.

I was about to press the button when the doorbell rang. That got me out of my trance. I stood up a bit confused and wiped my tear-stained face. I was supposed to be sick. Who could be here ? The only person unaware of my "condition" was Seokmin, but it couldn't be him. Right ? Was I actually hoping it was him ? I reached the door and glanced through the spyhole, afraid of who it could be. But I only saw the empty hallway. The heck ? Did someone try to prank me ? I opened the door and looked around, but no one was there. "You've gone nuts, girl. You're imagining things." I thought out loud. But then I noticed something on the floor. A small bag from which an appealing scent came out. I took it and went back inside to open it. It was a bowl of Samgyetang from my favorite restaurant. With it, a little note : "Eat this and you'll be better in no time ! Take care and come back quickly, the boys missed you. And I do too. – BC". I wanted so bad not to think about him, but the man wasn't gonna let me go. I smiled, moved by the attention. I took my phone and sent him a picture of the dish.

Night Owl

Me : Thank u for that.

Night Owl : Don't mention it. U feeling better ?

Me : Better now

Night Owl : Take care of yourself, make sure to eat and sleep. The boys are asking about u every day.

Me : I'll be there in no time, I promise

Night Owl : Good, cause I can't deal with them alone

Night Owl : I kinda... need u

Night Owl : I miss u

Me: ... I miss u too

Night Owl : Go rest princess, see u soon <3

Me : Night <3

That simple gesture tricked my mind. After that night, I was getting better each day. I won't say that it was always easy, but the healing process was on. I came back to work after a week, and life went on without much to say. Living without thinking about him became easier as time passed by. After a few weeks, life remained the same as it was.