IF HEAVEN WILL ALLOW US (COMPLETED)

EPILOGUE

EPILOGUE

Dark is the perfect description of my life before I meet her but when She came into my life, Everything Changed.

My dad was murdered and I saw it with my own eyes. Hindi ako pala dasal na tao but when I saw my mom suffering because of what happened to dad. I started praying.

That's where I saw her. Napadaan lang ako sa simbahan na 'yon pero pumasok ako dahil hindi ko na kinakaya ang mga nangyayari sa pamilya namin.

I am busy praying but she caught my attention. Nag darasal siya ng tahimik malapit saakin pero ang talagang naka pukaw ng pansin ko ay ang sugat niya sa pulsuhan.

Hindi iyon malaking sugat at mukhang gasgas lang but I know well where it came from dahil madalas ko rin nakikita 'yon sa pinsan kong babae.

Tingin ko ay marami siyang problema na kinahaharap kaya muli kong itinuon ang atensyon ko sa harap ng altar at muling nag simula sa pag darasal.

'God, Answer her prayers. Don't make her suffer the way I do. Let her experience all the happiness she deserves and Please, Give her someone who will give her hope to continue living, Amen.'

Nag sign of the cross na ako at nag lakad palabas ng simbahan dahil kailangan ko ng umuwi.

Every sunday ay bumabalik ako sa simbahan upang mag simba at bawat linggo rin na iyon ay nakikita ko siya.

But the most crazy is thing is she will always sit next to me. And for some reason that makes my heart beat so loud and fast.

Nagagawa niyang pabilisin ang tibok ng puso ko at unti unti ang buhay kong madilim ay tila ba nag kakulay.

She makes me happy sa simpleng pag ngiti lang niya ay napapasaya na ako agad at para sakin ay ayos na 'yon.

Admiring her from afar because I don't have the courage to ask her name. Mas magandang pag masdan ko nalang siya sa malayo lalo na't may posibilidad na may nag mamayari na sa puso niya.

I kept on admiring her from afar but I need to leave the country. Nalaman ko mula kay kuya na hindi maganda ang lagay ni mama kaya nag pasya akong umalis. But my heart stayed in Philippines.

Kaya naman nang maka balik ako sa bansa at nag enroll sa isang school na saktong kaklase ko siya napaka saya ko. Pakiramdam ko ay nakompleto na ako dahil nakuta ko siya ulit.

Akala ko ay ayos na saakin na gustuhin siya ng palihim at tahimik pero mali ako dahl hindi ko pala kaya. Dahil habang tumatagal ay mas narereliaze ko lang na hindi ko nalang gusto because I'm falling in love with her.

But I think I already fell and I fell hard. Habang tumatagal na nakakasama ko siya ay mas lalo ko siyang nakikila and that's me love her more. I love all her personalities.

I love her.. I love her so much but I'm afraid that she might reject me if i confessed.

Ayaw ko rin na kung anong isipin niya kapag umamin ako agad dahil wala pa naman kaming isang linggo na mag kakilala. Pero iba na ang nararamdaman ko.

May pakiramdam ako na mawawala na ako sa mundo. Malakas ang pakiramdam ko na hindi na ako mag tatagal kaya naman inipon ko na talaga ang lahat ng lakas ng loob ko.

And I confessed... I told her how I felt through god's words. And I din't expect her to reply through god's words also.

Psalm 71:6 was the Bible Verse she used to confessed her feelings. I don't exactly know if she really likes me but I took her words as a confession.

It seemed so fast but I courted her. But before that I talk to her bestfriend first. I asked them everything about her and I also asked for their blessings to let me court their bestfriend because I know that they are her family.