The Bolter | Walker Scobell

Chapter 21

"Mom... Mom. What are you doing ?" She turned around and looked at me

"I'm making food, i hope everyone's home for lunch " she smiled  looking into the oven "i think its almost ready, want to help me set the table ? Could you also call out to Cassie"

"Cassie is out for lunch with her friends, they always are on Sundays" i walked past her and opened the fridge to grab some water

"Can't she come home ? We haven't eaten together in ages"

"Yeah and who's fault is that" i muttered quietly closing the fridge and grabbing a glass to pour the water into

"I know i made some mistakes Mel but are you seriously gonna hold a grudge forever ?" I turned to her with the glass in my hand leaning against the counter behind me

"Maybe"

"I'm trying"

"Are you ? Last time you told me you were trying and you weren't gonna mess this up you ended up traumatising your 12 year old daughter and her friends, and i dont think i need to remind you what happened the time before that" her face looked sour at the thought of that time

"But I'm really here this time" i eyed her carefully before turning around to put the water bottle back into the fridge

"Are you going to rehab ?" She stayed quiet giving me all the answers i needed, i turned to face her again "yeah i thought so"

"I dont need rehab"

"And we dont need a shitty mother who keeps ruining our lives" I wasn't usually that judgmental but i was so fed up with my mother already that i just wanted to enjoy a moment of reminding her that she is a horrible mother while she was sober and could remember every word

I looked over at the oven smelling something burned, she realised in the same moment and muttered a quiet curse word as she opened the oven and reached for the oven gloves to take the food out

She held it in her hands and just looked at it, it was seriously burned,like completely black on top and not healthy looking at all

"Look what you've done again" before my brain could even register the yelling she smashed the food on the floor making me jump back slightly

"Mom"

"You are always trying to ruin everything for me. I wanted to spend time with my daughters but you always ruin it and then blame me for it. You wonder why I'm a bad mother Melody ? Because it is really impossible to be a good mother to you when all you do is complain and complain and complain, no one is ever good enough for miss Melody. Don't you see that its all your fault ? Your father is in prison because of you and you're still not stopping" she grabbed the closest thing that was in her way and threw it right at me. I could've moved out of the way and avoided it but it all happened so quick, i dont think i even truly understood what was happening

The Glass hit me right on my face and i saw her storming out towards the back

"Mom !" I still didn't move, the floor was covered in burned food and broken pieces of the form the food was in and i was shocked by her sudden change of attitude

I heard the doorbell ringing and still didn't move until i heard a second ring, i carefully tiptoed around the mess figuring that it was just a delivery guy anyways

I opened the door and saw that it was not a delivery guy outside the door

"I thought i got the wrong-" he stopped and i watched his eyes move over my face "what happened?" I didn't answer, I couldn't answer. It's like my brain was entirely broken and not functioning anymore "What happened Mel ? Who's here ?" He carefully pushed past me and went inside looking around for all about 5 seconds before coming back to me, he closed the door and slowly moved me to face him holding me by my arms "Mel" I moved my eyes up to meet his and the second he caught my eyes he pulled me towards him wrapping his arms around me

it is really impossible to be a good mother to you when all you do is complain and complain and complain, no one is ever good enough for miss Melody

Don't you see that its all your fault ?

You are always trying to ruin everything

I closed my eyes letting the embrace fully get to me before i lifted my arms slight to wrap them around him too and then i started crying, just quiet sniffles at first and then when i felt his arms tighter around me they turned into quiet sobs

I was always ruining everything, i had always been ruining everything.

I closed my hands slightly grabbing his hoodie in the embrace to hold him tighter, he was probably gonna drop me after this anyways, thinking I'm too weird and too fucked up to even spend another second with me, but in this moment he was here and he was holding me.

"It's okay" "you're going to okay" "its okay Mel" "I'm here"

His reassuring words made me sob a little more, I didn't want to lose him. Why am i always messing things up with everyone ...?

I felt so safe there, I didn't know if after this hug he was gonna turn around and walk out of the door and i would never see him again but i was really hoping that he would stay, i dont know why he would possibly stay but I really wanted him to stay.

Just for a second standing ther with his arms wrapped around me I forgot about my mom and all of what just happened just a few feet away

I think i really like him, this thing is way more than just a tiny crush. I like Walker Scobell.

Authors note:
Whoop whoop let the action begin 💃🏻💃🏻
Who's ready for this ? Cause I am so ready 🥳🥳
And finally a chapter that I didn't write half asleep 💪 (I wrote yesterdays chapter entirely and I thought I posted it to wake up this morning and find out that I did in fact not post it)
Anyways I hope you enjoyed the chap and be ready for some childhood trauma 🤪