The Bolter | Walker Scobell

Chapter 48

I let out a breath that came more out as a sob, lifting my hand to my mouth quiet it down

What had I just done ?!

I walked away from the house quickly to escape any possible attempt of him to come after me because I knew if he looked at me for one more second with those eyes I would fold

I didn't mean what I told him, but it was the only way to make it less painful, if he hated me enough he wouldn't mourn our relationship for long

Resenting me would help him heal faster so I would take that any day

More tears fell from my eyes as my vision was just a single blur and I kept walking until I was far enough away, leaning against a tree and trying to take in a breath which just resulted in more crying

My fucked up childhood had officially also ruined my first relationship now which was just... perfect

I felt lost. Like I didn't know where to go and what to do, my brain was invaded by fog and smoke building not a single clear thought in my mind so I just stood there trying to calm down for a bit

I need to get out of here. I need to get home.

The bus.

I couldn't possible take the bus in my state.

Walking would take an eternity.

I had to call someone... who can drive, who can pick me up. I tried thinking about someone but everyone I could possibly think of was working (I could only think of Cole's parents)

Flynn

Flynn. I pulled my phone out and searched for his name, clicking the phone button as soon as I found him. I heard the phone ringing for a second, then another one until there was some noise on the other end

"S'up M. C. ?"

"Can you please pick me up"

"Yo, are you okay ?"

"Can you please just come here Flynn, please"

"Yeah sent me your location, are you okay ?"

"No"

"I'll be right there okay ? Want me to stay on the phone ?"

"No. Thank you"

"Are you sure ?" I stayed quiet because I didn't know if I was sure, I wasn't sure of anything right now, I had just ruined the only thing I was sure of "Mel what's going on ?" I heard the car door close and the engine start "Mel talk to me"

"I just broke up with him" I spoke in barely a whisper, speaking it out aloud made it true and it made my heart break a little more

"Oh" though he sounded a little surprised I could hear the empathy "I'm sorry Mel that sounds bad kiddo. What'd the dick do ?"

"No, it's not- he didn't do anything, I just- I couldn't- I-" I let out a breath shaking my head, I fucked this up

"Hey, Mel, it's okay I get it"

"Yeah ?"

"Yeah. I get it M, look I'm going to be there in 20 minutes okay ?"

"Yeah" I whispered nodding to myself "Okay"

He stayed on the line with me the entire time it took him to get to me and I'm assuming that he was speeding a little cause he was here in just a little over 15 minutes when the drive down actually takes closer to 25 minutes

I crawled into the passenger seat in silence buckling my seatbelt and just closing my eyes for a second taking a breath

Flynn didn't start driving though, he wanted to talk about it. I knew he wanted to talk about it because he was that kind of person, but I really did not want to talk about it, any of it. I just wanted to go home and not do anything for a while because how had I spent my entire life waiting and actually begging god for someone to like me, like actually really like me, and the second I got it I ruined it

"Mel"

"Can you please just drive"

"Come on M. C., talk to me" I didn't open my eyes yet, the familiar nickname making my face fall for just a second, he gave me that nickname the first time we met when I spent the night at their house because my mom had thrown a tantrum and when I called Blake about it she called Destinys parents to get me a place to stay since they had gone on a trip that day

I had been a scared, vulnerable child, scared of her own mothers actions at the time and I couldn't help but feel the vulnerability again because I wanted to do nothing more than run back to Walker and tell him that I didn't mean it, that I wanted him back.

All of this lead back to my parents, of course it did... everything always led back to the worst part of my life. It was like a curse, I get something good in my life, I'm really happy, my parents get into my mind and just screw me up all over again. If I wanted a good thing in my life I needed to get them out of my mind but I wasn't sure how to do that

I shook my head slightly, which was followed by a sigh from him and then he started driving

I looked down at my phone once seeing a single message from Walker, two words

I'm sorry

There was not more than that, yet I felt my heart shatter at them, he shouldn't be sorry. He had nothing to be sorry about. I fucked up. This is my fault.

I felt Flynns hand on my shoulder for a moment but I didn't react to it, I felt sick to my stomach as I turned my phone off and put it aside

Authors note:
Oh well... this might be a little sad or whatever
I'm really sorry my loves but i mean after a low there can just be a high right ?
Just a little patienceeee
Or a lot of patience i don't know when they'll get back together
(I do know very well but I'm not telling you)