The Bolter | Walker Scobell

Chapter 25

"So how's it going with Walker ?"

"Wha- who ?- Huh ?" I turned my head to Destiny watching her look back at me with a frown

"Walker ? Walker Scobell ? The guy you're talking to every damn second"

"Oh Walker" I nodded a little blank minded

"Yeah"

"Yeah it's good, it's the same you know" I smiled nodding again, he frown didn't leave her face as she kept looking at me, I looked over at Cole who had an amused expression on his face

"Well that was anything but assuring" Destiny said turning to Cole "wait, do you know something"

"Me ? Nooo" he shook his head faking a serious expression making me want to punch him because Destiny turned back to me

"What does he know that I don't ?"

"I hate you" I said to Colton who shrugged raising his head to rest on his hand as he was laying on his side on destinys bed watching us

"Melll"

"Des"

"Tell me" I looked at her and closed my phone crossing my legs on her couch, her doing the same sitting in front of me

"Promise me you won't do something rational that I don't approve of ?"

"What did he do ?"

"Destiny, promise" she looked Cole who just shrugged

"Fine"

"Okay, so remember when we met on Sunday"

"Yeah"

"And remember that my mom was there"

"Oh shit"

"I had completely forgotten that Walker was coming over like it completely slipped my mind somehow which normally doesn't happen, you know I don't forget things like that so quickly. Well I was arguing with my mother and she threw a glass at me" I pointed to my eye which still looked quite bad,no had told her that part but left out the rest "Walker came like right after that happened and he saw me and this and he just hugged me"

"Aww"

"And I started like breaking down right there"

"Aww" she grabbed my hands holding them in hers

"Yeah, he stuck around for a bit helping me clean the kitchen with the mess and helping me cool my eye and all that and then later we were laying outside in the garden and just talking and he asked me what all that was about and well... I told him everything"

"Everything...?"

"Everything." I nodded "and then we were talking about my eye again and he said it's proabably gonna leave a black eye and I was like that's cool it'll make me look like a badass" I smiled a little remembering his words "and he was like you're too sweet to be a badass you're the cute nice girl that everyone adores"

"Oh my god you're totally blushing, you're down bad for him"

"And then he kissed me"

"WHAT ?!" I bit my lip grinning to myself seeing her react to that tiny detail of information "Shut up. What ?!"

"Yeah"

"He kissed you ?!"

"Yeah"

"Like your first kiss ?!"

"Yeah, it was so nice Destiny I can't even describe the way I was feeling it was like I was gonna explode into a firework"

"Oh my god, so are you like dating now ? Come on keep talking I need to know more" my smiled dropped and I looked down at our hands "what ?"

"He said he would text her but hadn't since then" Cole pitched in making me once again want to punch him

"No" I didn't say anything "Mel ? No."

"I told him everything Des it was too much it's fine"

"That is not fine Mel"

"It is, I'm fine"

"Oh you're clearly not honey" she pulled me into a hug and just with her arms wrapped around me while we sat on her couch I realised that I was really disappointed, despite my trying to talk it good I would've never expected this from Walker

It actually hurt to know he did that, he heard and saw everything and just didn't care ? I really thought he liked me...

I closed my eyes to push the tears down and out on a smile

"It's fine" I repeated "I'm fine, it's fine Des"

"Stop saying it's fine, that's really fucked up"

"What do you want me to say Destiny ? It is fucked up I know, but that's just my life. My life is fucked up and I have to expect this reaction from everyone who knows about my life. Maybe I'll never find someone who can look past that and love me and if I don't that's fine because honestly I've grown my peace with it. My life isn't all that shiny and bright like yours I'm not a cheerleader and I'm certainly not as perfect as you so I just have to accept that I'm too much for people" I got up and left her room hearing both of them call out for me while I just rushed down the stairs and went outside

I had not grown my peace with that. I was the definition of a hopeless romantic and knowing that I might not experience love actually causes me physical pain

I loved love so much but the idea of someone loving me like that seemed so wrong

I went to the park that I knew was nearby and sat on a bench pulling my knees up to my chest

I couldn't believe I was so wrong about Walker

I couldn't believe I was naive enough to think that he would stick around and like me, how could I have been that damn stupid ?

I took my phone out of my pocket and just stared at it like staring at my phone was gonna get me a message, it didn't.

I opened my phone and went onto walkers chat, I started typing and stopped and started and stopped and started and stopped again

I closed my eyes and took a breath closing my phone again and placing it beside me, I put my forehead on my knees and let out a frustrated groan

"Excuse me ? Are you okay ?" I bit my teeth and smiled looking up at where the voice came from

"Yeah, I'm fine. Thank you for asking" the young girl looked at me and nodded

"Are you sure ? Do you want a piece of my chocolate ? That always makes me feel better" I felt like crying at how adorable and innocent the little girl was as she handed me a piece of her chocolate

"Thank you so much, this is gonna make me feel so much better" she smiled before skipping off to go playing again

I watched her go back to the playground holding back my tears, I wish I could go back and be that little girl again

"Her father passed away a few weeks ago" I looked at the woman who sat down on the bench beside me and had to hold myself back from crying even harder

"Oh" it was all I could say

"It's been hard on her but I'm glad to see she kept her kindness. Are you alright though ?"

"Yeah, just some silly little problems" I felt my voice breaking towards the end and just smiled breaking a piece of chocolate and looking at it before eating it

Authors note:
I'm backkkkk
Istg this wasn't a school trip but a survival trip it was pure horror
But I survived and made the best of it 😁
This whole slow burn isn't working out somehow help 😭😭
Wouldn't you all like to know what's going on with Walker very much ?

Welp I know it and just wait a little longer 😁