The Bolter | Walker Scobell

Chapter 53

July 21st 2024

"I can't believe this is always happening to me"

"It's gonna be okay. Can you stop pacing around you're freaking me out" I stopped and looked at Coke who was sitting on his chair looking a lot more stressed than I could've imagined

"You should be freaking out Cole do you know what that would mean ?! Did he break out of prison ? Is he coming after me cause he went to prison because of me ? I don't know what he would do Cole but I have no doubts about the fact that if he wanted he could murder me with his bare hands"

"You're overthinking this" he knew damn well that I was right but he was trying to keep his cool facade up "dad is gonna walk in here any second and tell you that he is still in prison where he's supposed to be for another few years just calm down"

"I can't calm down Cole. Stop telling me to calm down"

"Okay then stop worrying about that and start looking at the fact that your mother is also still sitting downstairs" I closed my eyes and bit my lip shit

"Kids" I turned around taking a step back as Cole's parents returned to his room, I tried to read their expressions but I couldn't be too sure. James looked at me, then at Cole and then he sighed shaking his head

"No" I've whispered shaking my head "no" I felt Cole stand up and move closer behind me

"Dad"

"I'm sorry kid, he's out on parole for good behaviour" it felt like the air had gotten ripped out of my lungs, I just looked at him in disbelief shaking my head again

I stumbled a step back but Cole caught me, holding me by my shoulders

"No. No no no no" I shook my head hoping that I would wake up from this bad bad nightmare soon enough

"Dad is out ?" All of us turned to the door where Cassie was standing, wide eyed with a tear running down her check

"Oh Cass" Blake pulled my sister into her arms immediately while I still tried to process it

"Shit" was all that I could whisper into the silence of the room "no" my voice broke as everything just came crashing down, the year long abuse played right off my brain as my eyes were fighting to let the tears out, I suddenly felt so weak, so vulnerable

"Mel, hey Mel" it's like my best friends words flew by right beside me, so close yet so out of reach

I gasped for air, feeling Cole's arms around me as my weeks felt too weak to hold me anymore, they gave in and I slid on the floor, sitting there and breathlessly crying while Colton held me

I didn't know what to say or do or even how to think in that moment, my brain just kept repeating the same words over and over again

Dad is out of prison
Dad is out of prison
Dad is out of prison
Dad is out of prison
Dad is out of prison

I don't think I had ever felt this much fear before, sure I had been terrified often by a lot of things but never this much. This was a whole different level of fear that I certainly couldn't handle. I was losing it.

"You're safe here Mel. I got you. He's not coming anywhere near you okay ? He's not gonna hurt you again" I didn't say anything, my mind was still blank

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I felt numb

After crying for what felt like hours I was so freaking exhausted by everything I just didn't want to feel this anymore

"Do you want something to drink honey ?" I shook my head and heard Blake sigh from the kitchen

"Come on Mel you've been sitting here like this for hours, you haven't said anything and barely moved this is not healthy" Cole spoke from my left "get up we're going on a walk" I shook my head again "I didn't ask you Mel I told you, get your ass up from the couch"

After him basically forcing me out of the house I didn't really feel any better

"Talk to me Mel, stop walking around like a zombie"

"I'm just so scared Cole"

"I know. And that's normal this is fucking terrifying but what, are you just gonna drown in fear now ? That isn't like you"

"I'm just... drowning in my feelings..." I took a breath, letting it out as a sigh "I'm feeling so many of these new scary emotions and I don't want to feel them anymore. I'm so sick of feeling this way all the time" he stopped and looked at me "my whole life is just a huge mess and I'm so tired of cleaning up behind it all the time"

"Mel"

"It's like life is actually looking down at me and yelling "fuck you" in my face every day over and over again" he looked at me with a hurt expression "I pick up extra shifts at the cafe all the time whenever I can and yet I can still barely lay our bills. I have so many thoughts in my head all the time that I can't focus on one thing a d I can't forget about them either"

"Mel you know-"

"You know when the only time I could enjoy my brains silence was ? When I couldn't hear all those thought ? When I was talking to Walker. But of course I screwed that up too, it's all I do in my life. Go around and mess things up"

"I know life is tough for you right now but, this is not forever"

"Isn't it ? Cause I've been telling myself that since I was a child and yet here we are years later still in the fucked up situation. This is just the way my life goes Cole, there is no getting out of this" his face looked like I had just punched him in his gut, then stabbed it with a knife and turned it around "I don't deserve to feel better ?" He closed his eyes, escaping my tear filled eyes

"Mel I think it's time you consider going to therapy"

Authors note:
Ahhh so much pain. So much hurt 😪
Free Mel from this pain please my girl is NOT doing well over there

Anyways thank you all so so much for being so understanding with me that really means a lot to me, I will post as often as I can but just know that I am so grateful for your kind words 🫶🫶