begin again | woosan (✓)

- one hundred one -

tw / a few mentions of abuse & a small panic attack

the petting zoo was truly a perfect experience for the boys. wooyoung was giddy over all of the animals, and san of course enjoyed every second seeing his boyfriend so happy.

"you're beautiful, woo~" san said softly while wooyoung was holding a bunny.

"oh shh..."

"how could i be quiet about how beautiful you are? that's not fair," san pouted.

wooyoung laughed quietly, looking at san with adoration.

"just take a picture of me with the bunny, silly. i know you said we have to get going soon," wooyoung teased.

san quickly obliged, taking a few pictures of the boy and then pressing a kiss to wooyoung's head.

"take your time, angel. we're going to our cafe after this to rest for a bit before we go to the next place."

wooyoung smiled softly, nodding and saying his goodbyes to the sweet bunny in his arms, then visiting a couple more animals before the two headed out.

while there weren't too many people at the petting zoo, san could easily see that wooyoung was a bit on edge and needed the quiet space soon. there was no better space for that than their favorite cafe, hence why san had planned things that way.

"music on or off?" san asked gently as they got into the car.

"mmm... on? please? i don't want silence right now... my mind might play tricks on me..."

san nodded, kissing the boy's temple and turning on the radio.

"our booth will be open when we get there, love. i called them and asked them to have it ready."

"thank you, sannie..."

with that, san started driving to the cafe, squeezing wooyoung's hand from time to time to keep him grounded until they got to the cafe. once they were inside, wooyoung went to the booth and san went up to the counter, thanking the staff for helping to make their day special before ordering their usual drinks. he tried to be quick, knowing that the longer he stayed away from wooyoung, the more likely the boy was to succumb to his thoughts.

with their drinks ordered, san was quick to head back to their booth, sitting next to wooyoung instead of on the opposite side when he noticed the boy was dissociating.

"woo... wooyo, stay with me, love."

"s-sannie?"

"yeah, baby... i'm right here. can i hug you?"

"please? i-i'm scared... i-i don't feel right."

san hugged wooyoung close to him, humming softly.

"tell me how you feel... talk through it with me."

"i-i can't breathe... i-it feels like someone is s-stepping on me... i-it hurts, sannie... m-make it stop," wooyoung whimpered, his eyes filling with tears.

san pulled the boy closer, kissing his head and rubbing his back.

"none of it's real, woo... i'm right here, okay? i'm rubbing your back and holding you close to me. it's all going to be okay, just try to listen to the sound of my voice. can you do that for me?"

"o-okay... i-i'll try."

san continued to softly talk to wooyoung, coaxing him slowly out of his panicked state. wooyoung sniffled and stayed close to san, letting his body relax as he felt himself getting closer to reality.