begin again | woosan (✓)

- one hundred fifteen -

hongjoong moved in with the three a little over a month later, and wooyoung finally felt like everything was falling into place.

he was talking to his therapist about it that day, telling her everything about school, his love life, having a new roommate, all of it.

his next session was going to be another round of exposure therapy, which he had been doing better with as the sessions went on. he no longer felt like he needed someone with him during these sessions, although he still brought san to every single one. he practiced on his own with san too, going places he had bad memories of from his time with his ex.

"and the meds, you're doing well with those?"

"yeah... they help. it's kind of frustrating that i have to wait for one of my roommates to be up to take them, but i understand why it's necessary."

"do you feel like you would endanger yourself if you had access to your pills?"

"probably not, but i don't know... bad days can set me back pretty far, so it's probably best for things to continue this way."

his therapist nodded and wrote something down, then they went through a closing activity before wooyoung made his way out of the woman's office.

when he got to san's car, he noticed before even getting in that the boy wasn't fully there. he had been a bit anxious earlier in the day too, stress building up about an assignment in the dance class they had together. so wooyoung knew immediately what was going on, getting into the car carefully so he wouldn't startle san.

"hi sannie~"

"woo... h-hi."

"can we sit in the back for a little bit?" wooyoung whispered.

san nodded in agreement, then the two got into the back and wooyoung hugged san tight.

"i know you've been anxious all day... it's starting to get to you, isn't it?"

san nodded, burying his head into the crook of wooyoung's neck.

"take your time, sannie... take deep breaths. i'm right here with you, i'm not going anywhere," wooyoung spoke calmly, doing his best to ease san's anxious mind.

it wasn't long before san was crying softly in wooyoung's arms, letting the boy's presence ground him.

"i love you so much, sannie... i'm right here. we can talk about it later, right now i just want you to take care of yourself."

san nodded, holding onto wooyoung tightly.

"should we call jjong and have him pick us up?" wooyoung asked softly after a while.

"n-no! i-i don't want him to see me like this... he'll be worried..."

"okay... i just want you comfortable, my love."

"i-i want to stay here... i-i'm okay, i just need you..."

wooyoung leaned forward and gently pressed a kiss to the boy's lips, then rested his hands on the back of the boy's neck. he pressed their foreheads together and led the older in slow, deep breaths, eventually pulling him out of his anxious state.

now that his mind was a bit clearer, all san wanted was to go back to wooyoung's and cuddle in the boy's bed with their dog right there beside them. it was almost like wooyoung had read his mind too.

"do you feel okay to drive?"

san nodded, muttering a quiet yes as he leaned in to peck wooyoung's lips.

"okay... let's go to mine. cuddle in my room?"

"yes please..."

the boys got back in the front seat and san drove them back, the boys quietly walking in when they realized jongho was over. they snuck down the hall to wooyoung's room, san sighing as he finally laid down.

"i'll be right back, okay? i want to grab us waters."

"be quick, please? i-i really need you here..." san admitted, his cheeks red.

wooyoung smiled, nodding as he leaned down and kissed san's cheek.

"of course, sannie. i'll be back quick."

wooyoung made his way into the kitchen, where yeosang and jongho were cooking together, a tradition for the couple.

"oh, woo! how was therapy?"

"it was good! i'm pretty tired though, so sannie and i are going to take a nap. i told him i'd get us waters though, i kind of wanted to see you before my nap," wooyoung explained as he got the two bottles of water.

"ah, i see! have a good nap, youngie~" yeosang said cheerily, giving the boy a warm hug before wooyoung headed back to his room.

san was anxiously biting his nails when he returned, but he was still doing much better than outside of wooyoung's therapist's office.

"i'm back~" wooyoung greeted.

san smiled small, scooting over a bit so that wooyoung had space to get on the bed. wooyoung hugged the boy tightly as he did, humming as he pressed his head to the boy's chest.

"your heart is still beating fast."

"it always is around you..."

"are you saying i make you anxious?" wooyoung joked.

san let out a soft laugh, his body settling into wooyoung's embrace.

"no... i just love you a lot. loving you is exciting to me."

"i love you more, y'know."

san was mostly distracted from his anxious thoughts now, and wooyoung intended on keeping it that way.

"y'know... i'm really glad you've been by my side for so long."

"yeah? i am too, my love," san responded, kissing wooyoung's temple.

"i can't express how grateful i am, honestly. you gave me a second chance, just by being a part of my life. i will forever be in debt to you."

"well... the only way i want that debt to be paid is by having you by my side... forever."

"i promise... i will be."

san smiled small and pressed a soft kiss to wooyoung's lips, keeping the boy close.

"san?"

"yeah?"

"i-i want to try soon... y'know... sex."

"you do?"

"yeah... i feel ready."

san nodded, gently brushing through wooyoung's hair before giving him a soft kiss.

"we'll take it slow. and you have to tell me if things feel good or bad, okay? i don't want you letting me do anything that makes you uncomfortable. and remember... we may not get there on the first try, yeah? we're going to go at a pace that you are both mentally and physically comfortable with. if something triggers you or you start to feel panicky or unsafe, we stop."

wooyoung smiled small, nodding in response before he finally said "okay". he was more than grateful that san was so understanding, that he cared so much about the boy's comfort and safety.

"you have my word, woo. i will make sure that our first time together is everything you want and more."

"thank you... i love you so much, sannie."

"and i love you... forever."

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2 days in a row??? who is this diva