Heartbeat

Chapter 30

Craige's Pov.

 I feel my heart being shattered after hearing everything, I feel so stupid, pakiramdam ko ang sama kong tao sa kanya, Hindi ko man lang siya binigyan ng chance before, I didnt know that she had to suffer all those things, hindi ko alam na mas nasasaktan pala siya sa mga nangyayari dati. I was such a jerk.

"I'm sorry, Hannah" saad ko habang nakatingin sa kanya. Pinunasan niya ang luha niya at tumingin sakin. 

"You don't have to say sorry, Craige, Naiintindihan kita, hindi mo kailangang humingi ng tawad sa'kin, I forgive you already, and I hope you would forgive me too" Saad nito. Niyakap ko siya dahil bumibigat narin ang pakiramdam ko sa mga nalaman ko. 

"Pinapatawad na kita, Hannah, Galit ako pero hindi sayo, galit ako sa  ginawa mo, I'm sorry that I didn't allow you to explain, I'm sorry that I did not stay with you, wala akong ka alam alam sa nangyari sayo dati, I was a jerk back then, I know that my sorry won't fix a thing pero forgive me Hanna, for pushing you away, for cursing at you, for hating you, for saying hurtful words at you, without knowing the truth." Saad ko dito.

"Craige, naiintindihan ko kung bakit, Kasi kung ako ang nasa sitwasyon mo, masasaktan din ako, I would hate you, I would curse you, I would say hurtful words at you. You don't have to apologize, naiintindihan kita, Craige at alam ko ngayon naiintindihan mo narin ako." Saad nito sa'kin.

"Naiintindihan na kita, 'yun lang naman kasi talaga ang gusto kong malaman, kung bakit nagawa mo parin akong Iwan, I didn't know you had to suffer all of those sa kamay ng papa mo, pero don't worry nandito na ako, I'll protect you from him, Kaya na kitang protektahan at ipaglaban" I felt her sobs habang nanatili akong nakayakap sa kanya.

"Go on cry, I'll be here, Hindi Ako aalis at mananatili ako dito" dagdag ko pa na mas lalong kinaiyak ni Hanna. She just cried and cried Hanggang sa dahan dahan siyang tumahan at naramdaman ko nalang siyang natutulog na yakap yakap ko. I carried her in a bridal style at umakyat sa itaas. I layed her down at nilagyan ko ng kumot ang kanyang kalahating katawan. I stared at her, she looks very tired and sad. Kitang kita mo sa mukha nya na nalulungkot siya. Her face and hair got messy dahil sa pag iyak nya but above all she's still beautiful. Even though she experienced bruises from her father. Maisip ko palang na sinasaktan pala siya ng papa nya nasasaktan na ako. I could have protected her pero Hindi ko nagawa. I could have done something for her pero Wala akong nagawa. I could have been there for her. Pero mas pinili kong kainin ako ng galit and I hate myself for that. Nararamdaman ko na Naman Ang pag sikip ng dibdib ko and I just found myself sobbing. Humiga Ako sa tabi niya at niyakap siya then I kissed her on her forehead.

"This time, I won't leave, I love you, Hanna, Years had past, pero mahal parin kita. My heart beats for you since day 1 and it's still beating for you" Saad ko kahit hindi niya Ako naririnig. I just love this girl so much and this time I will do my duty as a man.

I cried my heart out and after that tumayo Ako para punasan si Hanna. I took a towel at Isang planggana so that I can wipe her. Tinanggal ko rin 'yung make up niya, I tapped her hands with water and also her feet, tinanggal ko rin 'yung make up niya para hindi naman siya uncomfortable sa pag tulog. Lumabas rin ako pagkatapos at doon natulog sa sofa. Gusto ko man manatili pero I respect Hanna. Not as someone special but as a woman itself.

Hanna's Pov.

Nagising ako dahil sa sinag ng araw na tumatama sa mukha ko, the curtain is already open, bumangon ako at tumingin sa paligid. My clothes is still the same last night, I remember sharing everything to Craige at iyak lang ako ng iyak. Did he carry me here? The thoughts of it melted my heart. Bumangon ako at tumingin sa salamin and to my surprise my face is clean. I didn't remember cleaning it last night and again si Craige na naman ang naisip ko. Nag hilamos muna ako at lumabas ng kwarto. Nang makalabas ako agad kong na amoy ang aroma ng kape at amoy ng sinigang. Nang makababa ako nakita kong nagluluto si Craige, Basa pa 'yung buhok niya at Wala siyang suot pang itaas. His broad shoulder is exposed at kitang kita mo ang kaputian ng katawan niya. He became more mature than before.