TILL INFINITIES END

28. TIA

I sat there on the terrace of my apartment, at a spot where no one could possibly see me. I wanted to normalize my red nose and swollen eyes before I went home to avoid Mumma and papa getting bothered. There were two things that left me in shock, which came totally unexpectedly. First- the worst possible scenario I had imagined was that Sam would say no and reject me. To even go to the extremes of the possibility, he would break the friendship. But him leaving Delhi and shifting like this? NOO! I would've never thought of this even in my wildest of dreams.

I feel two opposite things- one, to never talk to him again, and two, to call him RIGHT now and ask for an explanation for why he didn't tell this to me earlier. I tried to calm down my breath as I looked into the sky and diverted my mind into its patterns. But every single fucking thing had him in it. Like, everything carried his essence, his sense... I tried to divert, but failed. How can I ever be okay to not talk to him about what he had just done? Or rather what god has just done to me?

I picked up my phone in rage and turned off the airplane mode.

66 missed calls from "Sam"

And his messages from WhatsApp popped up on my screen.

"tia???"

"I am so so so sorryyy tiaaa!!! Please pick up the call!!"

"tiaa please I am sorryyy!!"

"talk to me!!! I am worried!!"

"tia don't switch off your phoneee plsss!!! Let me give an explanation pleaseeeee!!! Sorryyy"

"tia pick up the calllll!!!"

"where are youuu???"

"I am worried!! Are you home??"

"tia?? Helllooo??"

"call back please!!"

"Tia did you reach home? Tiaa?"

"you there?"

My heart broke even more to see this. I was still not sinking into it.

I was not in any condition to talk to him about this thing right now. I felt so helpless, to not be able to stop myself from feeling this pain. I had so many questions, whose answers were with Sam, and I wanted to get those answers, but I just couldn't...because I was way too scared to face the reality. Tears once again rolled down my eyes as I felt my throat choke. I sat on my knees and buried my face in my palms, as the heaviness of the atmosphere hit me.

Fuck, he's leaving...

I kept crying and crying. No, he can't leave, no no no no nooooo!!!!

I sit on the terrace, and look at the sky. The sunset, which was once comforting, now deepened my pain. The colors of the sky blur through my tears, each one reminding me of him.

Tia I'm leaving...in two weeks...

His voice echoes in my mindand I break down like a baby again. I feel helpless, consumed by pain. As thesun sets below the horizon, darkness enters into the picture, and my heartbreaks with each passing moment, knowing it's not the sun that's slipping away,but my best friend...