"I DONT WANNA LOOK LIKE A WHORE" i looked up from my phone, my girlfriend slouching in the mirror in the dressing room. "you wont, honey. this dress is dinner appropriate." i said, taking a close look at the brown tight dress. "you dont think it shows too much?"
"nah, not really.. i mean, im gonna be looking, that's my job." she laughed, wrapping her arm around me, "can you buy me all 3?" she asked me, "are you gonna wear all three?" i asked, "yes! you can never have too many dresses." she said, brushing her hair behind her ear.
im gonna buy them for her anyways. we left the dressing room and me and nessa took pictures with some people. they were pretty nice so i hope nothing bad comes of it. thanksgiving dinner is tonight, im ready to eat and spend time with nessa and family.
"billie, guess what?"
"yeah?" i asked as i opened the trunk of my car and nessa put her bags in, "im dropping out of school." i stopped in my tracks but nessa didnt. "baby, move before i smash your fingers in the door. we got in the car and i looked at her, "really? why?"
"i hate it, one. and i love being in LA, i have great friends, and i just wanna stay in my house and literally bed rot. plus, you're here in LA. i dont ever wanna leave you, i hate leaving you, bil."
"but that's been your dream since you were a kid."
"and this is my dream now. you, everybody here." she has been making some friends when she comes down here and i was spectical about it but i could never tell her, i love seeing her happy. some girl named sabrina, and some other girl named lauren. i've only met them once when sabrina came to my house to pick her up.
"plus! i wanna be a model. i've got new offers and i realized that my other job.."
"is full of shit. i know. it's okay, we're young, we're still figuring it out." i can tell she's really anxious about it though. i reached over and took her hand in mine, "right! i can always go back to school." i nodded, "course you can, babe."
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"shark! no!" i gently pushed the big dog away. "to your cage, sir. let's go." my girlfriend said, ushering her dog into his cage. she looks so cute!! and i look really good too. im almost done getting ready, but i need to hurry.
"you look so prreeetttyyy.."billie said, wrapping her arm aroud my waist and kissing my cheek. i puckered my lips for a kiss and she gave me one, "are you excited???" i asked her, putting my last earing on. "hell yeah, im so ready to eat. you ready?"
"yeah! let's go."
we got in billie's car and went on our way. "i like when you drive this car. why dont you drive it?" i asked at a red light. "i dont know, i just like riding in the other car... i wouldn't mind riding you." i smiled and gave her a kiss.
we were just driving when i looked down in the cup holder. there was a lipstick. it's not mine, it's a super ugly shade and billie doesn't wear this shade either. "babe?" i asked, picking it up. when i flashed it in her face, her big eyes went wide.
i raised an eyebrow, "what? who's is it? is it not yours?"
"b-baby, i dont know who's is it?" suddenly we had arrived at her parents house. "i-i dont know.. it's a friends, i promise." i clenched it in my fist and got out of the car. i threw it at her, "did she put this back on when you were done fucking her?" she smacked her lips, "i wasn't fucking anyone, nessa. calm down. we're right outside."
"im calm! dont tell me to calm down!"
"it's just a ugly fucking lipstick, i dont care. let's go." she took my hand and pulled me up to the door. she knocked and i acted to happy to be there, but now i just wanted to curl up in my bed and die. me and billie found ourselves alone in the kitchen getting food.
"please dont be mad at me. not tonight."
"you see how im not making a scene, billie? it's like you're asking for it."
"im not. i just dont want you to be mad, okay? i want you happy, all the time." billie whispered but i ignored her and left the kitchen, going into the dining room to take a seat and eat. they asked me easy questions, i told them i was still figuring out what i was doing with my life but i tried my best to let them know im not using billie, since they all are kinda looking at me like they think i am, even maggie.
i promise im not. it's not a crazy assumption, some bitches are mean and unfair but not me, i truly love my girlfriend.. not when i find lipstick in her car though, nu uh.
she came and sat next to me to eat her food. i had finished eating, most of the table had as well and they were just talking. i looked at my girlfriend who was still eating. "can you smile for the picture?" i asked, fixing my hair with the camera on us both.
"im sorry, okay?" she asked me, looking my dead in the eyes. "i know."
she didn't smile for the photo, just looked at the camera.. she still looks so good. "does that mean you accept it though?" she asked me and i ignored her until i had come up with something to say, "without an clear explanation that makes sense.. not really, no."
she seemed very anxious around me after that, and it was just really quiet. the tension was noticeable, i selfishly wanted to tell her to act normal so i wouldn't look bad. her family will look at me and immediately assume im the reason for the discomfort. but i didnt tell her anything, earning weird looks from her parent's friends, and her parents.
i was ready to leave, but billie wasn't which i respected. i didn't say anything though, just kept smiling and talking to people who talked to me.
"alright, guys! see you later!"
"bye! i had such a fun time, thank you for letting me come!"
