Mercy

Part 29: Voyeur

Siobhan stood there looking at her feet just like a child who did something wrong, I snapped a picture. She started to speak. I could obviously not make it out but I assume that she was apologizing or explaining herself. Then Autumn said something. It was short, just one word and I couldn't figure out what it was. Siobhan looked up at her after this and now Autumn was the one to lean forward and let their lips meet. I snapped another picture. I got her. I was pleased with the result, so pleased that I forgot what was happening in the apartment for a second. I went back to watching them through the lens of the camera. They had put their cups down and stood close together just pressing small kisses to each other. Was this really what Autumn liked because then her reaction made so much sense, or was this the result of our night together?

Every now and then they looked at each other and said something. It wasn't 'I love you' but they kept repeating something. It took me a while before I caught it 'is this ok?'. Siobhan especially kept asking Autumn this. I got some great shots but I was getting angry and I felt like interrupting them, but I also kind of wanted to see just how far this would go.

Autumn guided Siobhan to sit on the couch and then she gently got on her lap and held Siobhan's face in her hands as she started to kiss her again. I snapped another picture. Siobhan ran her hands over Autumn's back, and I snapped another picture. Aut leaned back and asked her the question again 'is this ok?' Then she deepened the kiss and I could see her start to move her hips, Siobhan's hands making her keep a slow pace. I had enough to end Siobhan, but I wasn't done. They were so soft and so caring, I had never experienced that, not to this extent, and they seemed to really enjoy it. That sounds stupid, but I don't think that they faked this intimacy, I couldn't relate, I faked most things.

Autumn tugged at Siobhan's shirt and got a nod as an answer. I understood now why Roger liked her so much. She was dolled up, her underwear was expensive and her body... Her body is the kind of body that gives girls eating disorders, but not in a sickly way. She didn't look real. I think that Aut thought the same because she just looked at her. She looked at me like that once. Siobhan blushed, how did she do that? She presented herself as this cold and confident person but then a pretty girl looked at her and it was all gone. I bet people find that endearing. Autumn kissed her again and reached around to remove her bra, once again she was perfect. Her breast were a little bigger than proportionate for her small frame, that's fucking annoying. She looked symmetrical but not in an artificial way. Autumn was the aggressor here, more than she had been with me. She hadn't touched me like this and jealousy was not a good colour on me. I wanted to hurt Siobhan. I wanted to cut every piece of skin Autumn's mouth touched and I wanted to hear her beg for me to stop. I wanted to see her bleed and I wanted to paint shapes on her perfect body with the blood.

Autumn got on the floor and once again she asked for consent. Siobhan said something different I can't be sure but in my mind she said 'You don't have to', she was just too good to be true, wasn't she? Autumn undid her pants and pulled them off, of course her panties matched her now discarded bra. She touched her through the panties at first while she kissed the inside of Siobhan's thigh. I snapped a picture. Siobhan's eyes fluttered shut and I bet she made some really soft moans to let Autumn know just how well she was doing. She finally took off her panties and Siobhan said something again. Autumn removed her shirt and her bra so I assumed Siobhan felt a little exposed and that she wanted to see Autumn's body as well. I missed her body.

Autumn finally started to eat her out and I snapped my last picture. My anger transformed into sadness and then grief, but then back to anger. I started to doubt why I was even doing this. I did care about Autumn and I think that I should just want her to be happy but I wanted her to be happy with me. I was just as bad as Roger I guess. I didn't want anyone to ever touch Autumn. I wanted to be the one, the only one allowed to. I wanted to take care of her needs and I wanted her to want me like that. I didn't stick around to see them finish. I could imagine what happened. Siobhan came on Aut's face and they either stopped and cuddled up or Siobhan repaid the favour. It was absolutely sickening and I just let it happen. A part of me wishes I never saw it because I knew that this movie would play in my mind over and over, once it would start I knew I wouldn't be able to stop it. I would spiral and I was worried what that meant.

I got home and transferred the files to my computer and then to an USB for Roger and another for me, just in case. As soon as I was done I sent the text that could change everything.

'Got something for you, love M x'

I smiled to myself. He would know that something was wrong. I would never write anything like that. He answered surprisingly fast. I guess he didn't have much to do tonight seeing how his girlfriend was at his daughter's apartment getting fucked on the couch.

'10 in my office'

I didn't sleep that night. It was a mix of excitement and sadness. She was supposed to be with me. She was supposed to want me. She was supposed to be mine. It would soon be over and that, at least, was something to look forward to. I counted on Roger to not only destroy Siobhan but to break Autumn enough to make it easy for me to pick up the pieces. It sounds way more sinister than it is.

The fact that this was coming to an end also meant that I could move on with my plan, I just had to finish step three: Make sure Roger crushes them. This was the one step I had no doubts about and I knew that it would be swift. Now, what do you wear to you substitute fathers office, before lunch, when you are about to destroy people's lives? Black?