Don't Wanna Love

26. Alessandro and the twins

Alessandro

When I first went to see Soph in her home, my eyes immediately wandered towards the pictures in her living room.. 

I stood up to look at the boys, I assumed to be Liam's. But as I started seeing them, seeing Soph's pregnant pictures, when she delivered the boys, my heart felt an instant sting, but I put up a brave face and asked her who the father was.. 

I heard her say he wasn't in the picture and just then I saw latest picture of her with her sons.. and I couldn't help but notice the boy looked like a young version of me.. and then I asked her how old they were and then it all clicked in my mind and when she confirmed it, I couldn't take it.. to be in the same room as her and not scream my lungs out at her.. 

So, I did what I am best at, run.. move away.. from her.. When Liam called and explained to me all the situations she underwent, only then did I soften a bit.. 

He also told me he would not hesitate to come and kill me if  I troubled his sister.. 

I told him I wouldn't.. I took some time thinking and then went to the local bar and got my whisky and then saw Soph walk in and get some lunch for herself.. After spotting me, she changed her order to takeaway. 

I decided to follow her.. I needed to apologise and talk to her.. I held her wrist and she turned back.. 

"Soph.. I am sorry I left.. I couldn't handle my emotions.. and even now I am not sure I do.." I explained to her..

"Can I come once again to talk.. if you don't mind please.." I requested her..

She nodded and started to walk and I followed her.

She set her sandwich and gave me a piece and she took one.. 

I refused.. and asked her to eat.. She didn't.. Stubborn her. I took a sandwich from her and started to eat and we both ate in silence.

" I understand.. why you did what you did.. but I still feel you could've informed me maybe after a year or so.. at least... it hurts..so much to know I was never a part of their lives till now.." I trailed off.. 

" I couldn't do that to you and Jane.. and also this was my decision and I didn't know if you would've allowed me to or not since it was a bit risky for me.. and also I don't want the life you would give them.. for them and further,.. I never asked you.. You must have your own kids by now.. with Jane I suppose.. " she said.

" Jane has been taking treatments but they have failed.. we don't have kids yet.." I told her honestly. 

She nodded and then told me all about them. 

Also, she told me not to take them away from her. I was stung by her words. "I would never separate children from their mother.. as long as I can be a part of their lives in some way..." I told her. 

Also, she requested me to not tell Jane as it would break her.. She told me that a woman would feel more hurt.. in her case.. 

"I can let you meet them Alessandro, but I can't have you in our lives.. for Jane would be devastated, it's a tricky situation..   you and I cheated while you were still married to her.. "

I don't know.. I can't face her.. but I feel so bad if I were in her situation.. " she told me.

"I understand you concerns Soph.. but can we just for few days, keep Jane aside and can I spend some time with the twins.." I asked her.

What I never told Soph was.. with Jane, it was just a marriage of convenience.. at first, then when she lost her father, it was for protection's sake. If I left her now, she would be more vulnerable without me.. beside her.. but she always kept asking me for kids.. I tried.. We tried.. for her sake.. but it was just there.. not the kind of feelings I feel for Soph anyhow.. 

Jane knew I liked someone in the US, but still she wanted me so she got me. I did try to explain to her to not marry me, as my heart is elsewhere, but she is stubborn.. 

I am just excited to meet my sons.. for the first time.. I was really angry with Soph.. first, but then when can I be angry with her ever? I love her so much.. she did it for she didn't want to give them the life I would give and she stayed away from me as I was still married.. I am still actually.

"Alex.. you can meet them today evening.. they have always been asking where their papa lives.. I told them he lives abroad for business reasons.. I didn't tell you are married to Jane.. they think we are together.. and they don't really know the situation.. so.." she trailed off..

I couldn't help but stop my smirk.. "How in the world did you think you could pull this off Soph.." 

She just shrugged.. Now, there's the Soph I knew..

She said the nanny has gone to pick them up and I was a bundle of nerves..

Soph held my hand and patted it to say everything is going to be ok..

As I looked into her eyes, I suddenly heard a noise.. and then voices.. and then 2 cute looking boys entered and looked at me wide eyed..

Soph said to the boys.. "Boys.. surprise.. your papa is here.. " 

They looked surprised and then both of them looked at me with awe and wonder in their eyes just like I was looking at them.. 

Then they both came running and hugged me.. I was speechless.. I didn't even realise but I was crying.. tears.. tears of joy on meeting and hugging my sons. 

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