𝙱𝚊𝚗𝚐 𝙲𝚑𝚊𝚗 𝙾𝚗𝚎𝚜𝚑𝚘𝚝𝚜

𝙼𝚒𝚜𝚞𝚗𝚍𝚎𝚛𝚜𝚝𝚊𝚗𝚍𝚒𝚗𝚐

TW: alluded depression, argument, anxiety, mentions of suicide, self-loathing

Requested by @Alexloel

I hope I understood your request well enough!

Hopefully you like it... I took some (a lot of) liberties

Disclaimer: the request was made to be set during the survival show. I have only watched it once, and vowed never to watch it again- it was too traumatising (I could rant about it for hours). That being said, this story may include incorrect details and timings. If you see anything that appears to be incorrect, please note that I am most likely aware that it is wrong- I'm just too lazy to make sure that everything aligns with what actually happened irl

I am also aware of the actual circumstances surrounding the event I'm writing about

I'm sorry if you are upset with the way I changed the proceedings

Call it artistic license and read something else if that's the case

Chan can sense the shift in the air even as the words leave his mouth.

Jisung's face goes carefully blank, his eye twitching with the effort of keeping his anger inside. That alone is telling enough. Chan fucked up.

"You think we aren't being serious enough."

Chan's heart tightens and sinks in his chest, even as the rapper continues.

"We're taking this seriously. Can't you see that?"

He continues, his mouth moving, but Chan can't take it anymore.

He didn't mean for the words to come out the way they did.

He had just wanted to warn them that it didn't seem as though they were fully invested, and that if they were seen as lackluster, they would be cut.

He has seen it happen far, far too many times.

It doesn't help that he is running on a dangerously low amount of sleep, has been ever since the damn filming began.

He can't take it anymore, listen to Jisung defend himself and the others, knowing in his heart that the younger is right, that he is just being paranoid and scared.

He stands, leaving the room, nearly walking right into the staff member carrying a cake.

Oh.

That's right.

They were supposed to surprise Jisung for his birthday today, a small treat amidst the chaos that is filming for their survival show.

"Oh, I'm sorry, noona. Let me take that."

The staff member hands him the cake, looking as confused and bewildered as he is feeling.

It is as though he is on autopilot.

He doesn't want to go back there, quite the opposite.