Settle down

Chapter 36

Harry's P.O.V

When her car pulls up on the driveway I suddenly feel nervous and awkward. What the fuck I'm I doing here?! I'm creeping on a girl at night, that's what I'm doing. When the lights go off I accedentally bump into some bushes and I see her face through the wind shield and she must have seen the movements because she looks frightened. She looks out the window trying to see anyting, but because of the darkness she cannot see me, but I can see her every move. She's beauiful.

As she gets out of the car I stay hidden. I can see that she's scared and she's walking very quickly. I want to talk to her, but I don't want to scare her. I walk out of the bushes and towards her.

"Hey. You in a hurry?" I see that she jumps slightly and I instantly feel bad.

"What the actual fuck Harry?! You nearly gave me a heart attack!" She screams at me and I just feel very happy that she saw it was me. I would absolutely hate it if I gave her an actual heart attack. I can't help but starting to smile when I look at the look on her face.

"You know I would never hurt you." I say trying to sound carefree, but these words are so true it frightens me. I move closer to her. And I can't help but smile.

"What do you want?" She asks and takes a step towards me. Her move catch me off guard.

"Nothing special. I was just in the neighboorhood and thought I'd come by and say hi." I answer her question. I can't tell why I'm really here. I would for sure scare her off for good. I know that she's smart enough to see through my lie.

"Really...." Is all she says. It bugs me that I'm attracted to this girl and not just to her looks. I love how she talks, how she walks, how she is so easy to read and how she looks at me when she's annoyed. Just everything.

"Well since you've said hi now, I should be going inside. See you Harry." She says and turns her back on me. I really try to act "cool" but I think my dispointment is clear. I needed a distraction from everything. I still do.
She walks up the stairs to her front door and starts digging for her keys. I watch her carefully and for the first time I feel the need to touch her and be close to her. I increase my pace and walk quickly towards her, she doesn't notice me. She finds her keys and pull them out of her bag but she drops them instantly when I cup her cheeks and close the space between us.

Lola's P.O.V

His hands travel down to my waist and holds me in place. I know it's insane, but I feel like I know him in some weird way, I feel like all the rumors about him aren't true as his large hands gently moves down my body. I'm compelely in a trans as our lips move in sync. This kiss isn't fast and passionate like our others. This is very different. It's slow, meaningful and filled with...... Love?
I suddenly taste something salty and I don't realize it's me until Harry pulls away and carefully looks at my face. His thumb goes under my eye to catch a tear.

"Harry....I" I try to explain myself. I somewhere believes that he will be grossed out and leave me, that he is uncapable of handling feelings.

"Why are you crying?" He asks with the most caring voice I've ever heard and it makes me feel even worse about everything I'm planning. He can't be evil. He can't be. Why is he making this so hard for me? Because you're falling for him. I hear Sally's voice in my head.

"I'm sorry..." I look into his chest who's moving only inches before me. We stand like that for a while and then he brings his arms around me and pulls me into a warm comforting hug. One hand holding me by my waist and one on my head he holds me against his chest and I have never felt so comfortable and safe in his company.

"You don't always have to be strong, let your guard down." He kisses me on the top of my head and walks away in the dark leaving me standing confused and alone by my front door. As soon as I get inside the house I run upstairs and throw my mentally and physically dead body on my bed and tears start streaming down my face. I'm not too sure why I cry but it's heavy crying, I can't remember the last time this happened. I'm so confused. I have told myself, Sally and Tim that I will not fall for Harry and I swore (kind of) that I would be different than his other girls. I was supposed to make him understand how the other girls felt, but like this. I'm exactly like his other girls. I refuse to believe that these tears are for him!
A gentle knock on the door interupts my thoughts and my mom's head peeks in.

"Hey honey. Are you okay? I heard you coming home and just running up the stairs. That's not like you." Her eyes are filled with worry and I just want her to hug me and tell me that everything is okay, like she used to when I was little. I dry my tears off my face and try to sound fine.

"Oh, yeah. I'm fine. Just a little tired." I fail miserably and my voice shakes. She walks over to my bed and sits down beside me.

"I know that we haven't talked much lately. Not like we used to, and I'm really sorry about that. You are growing up so fast, but I want you to know that you can still talk to me about anything honey...... Even that boy." That for some reason breaks me again. The tears that I fought are too strong and manage to push through. I don't know what this stupid Harry has got on me. My mother takes me into her safe and comforting arms and all of a sudden I'm four years old again.

"I-I'm so-orry. I'm j-jus-st so confused." I struggle to say inbetween sobs.

"Don't apologize honey. Do you want to talk about it?"

"No... I.... Maybe tomorrow? I think it all is just to fresh now and it's late and my brain is mush and I have to sleep." I say to my mother and she looks at me with a kind and supportive face.

"Of cource baby. You should get some rest. I love you Lola, so much and whatever is going on in your life right now, I know that you are going to be fine." She sweetly says and I feel somewhat better.

"I love you too mom. Good night." She walk out of my room, but before she closes the door she gives me one last approving look and I fall asleep quickly.