Settle down

Chapter 9

What did I just do? I'll tell you. I just ruined EVERYTHING! I actually like Harry, he's different and interesting. All other boys I've met recently are like open books. I never know with Harry and I like that. But I have now ruined everything.

I think he tried to kiss me. I wanted him to kiss me and that's why I didn't move in the first place, but then when he tried to actually do it, I ran away. I am so messed up.

I really don't want this to wreck everything we have built up. The first time we ever spoke, he hated me and now we almost kissed. He has probably gone back to hating me now. And maybe he feel stupid for trying to kiss me. Aaargh! Why did I do that?!?!

After lunch we have history together. I bet that's going to be so awkward because of my stupidness. Maybe I should go and find him and explain my idiocy. Yes, I'll do that.

Harry's P.O.V

What did I just do?

I think I just ruined it all. I scared her away, like I do to everyone else. However, she isn't like everyone else. She is different and special. I usually only find teenage girls annoying when they walk around, trying too hard and end up looking like young prostitutes. They all pretend to be stupid and only talk about things that they think the others will be impressed by.

She was never like that. She sit at the front of the class everyday with her notebook out and pencils all over. Though, she's not nerdy either. She is smart and funny and when she speaks about something she is passionate about she cringes her face. I also love that she blush whenever I say her name, but the thing I love the most is the way she makes me feel.

And I ruined it.

Why did I try to kiss her. I mean I have been wanting to kiss her for quite a while, but why didn't I wait until we were alone. She must think that I am like that Paul freak. I don't blame him for finding her attractive. Who wouldn't, but I hate the fact that he has zero respect for women and especially her.

We have history together after lunch. Damn it.

I think I'm just gonna leave. The last thing I want is for her to get more stressed about the situation by having the one throwing himself at her in the same room. Yeah, that's what I'll do.

Lola's P.O.V

I am so not hungry. I was before, but now I'm just not. I should stop hanging out with the man kind, it only leads to trouble. Or I could hang out with those that I would never develop feelings for such as old men and ugly and rude men. There we have it, from now on I will only socialize with old, ugly and rude men.

I need a girl friend. I need Sally.

I walk into the cafeteria and sit down by Sally's table.

"Hey Lola. Is everything okay? You look a little down." Sally asks. Her eyes are filled with compassion I just want to cry with her. Unfortunately she is not alone. Paige, Oona, Paul and Jack is sitting here as well.

"Uhm. Sally, can I talk to you for a sec?" I ask

"Yes of course." She says and now she looks worried. Ugh. I don't want to make her worried!!!

We walk away a bit from the others.

"Sally, I need a girls night." Straight to the point.

"Yeah of course. Boy drama? I get it. How is tonight for you?" I was going to finish the french project today with Harry, but....

"You know what. Tonight's perfect."

My plan is to talk to Harry as soon as I see him in history class. I'll tell him why I freaked and then If he understands, everything will be back to normal. And if the moment allows I can kiss him then, because who am I kidding. That boy is too handsome to resist.

Since I believe that Harry and his friend are gonna wanna sit in the back corner again, that's where I take a seat. I'm going to sit here and wait for him, there is no chance that he is escaping all of this. (I'm referring to myself)

..............

What the hell?! He didn't show up! Fuck, this is worse than I thought. He hates me enough that he can't bear being in the same room as me for an hour. Oh, man. I screwed up big time.

I sat in the corner as I had planned and when his friends came I thought that harry would come as well so I smiled up and waited for him to see me, but he didn't come. Instead his weird friends saw me again, but instead of saying "Hi Harry" I sat on Harry's seat. I am a big fat failure.