Settle down

Chapter 48

Sally was awake when we entered the room and she was very happy when we came in with breakfast for her. The entire morning was great. We ate in bed and we watched some TV while eating. When the breakfast was finished we carried the dishes down again and then I started packing my things. 

I critically look at myself in the bathroom mirror while I brush my teeth. My hair is begging me to take it to a hair dresser to cut it, but I do have a tiny fear of the hair dressers. Once when I was little my mom and I asked the hair dresser to just cut of the ends to freshen up the hair, but he cut of like two decimeters. I had hair past my waist but after my visit there it barely reached down below my shoulders. After that I have feared going to the hair dressers. If I ever audition to one of these TV shows where they ask the contestants if they have an emotional life story, that's definitely the one I'm going to tell.

When I get downstairs I see Niall and Sally by the door. Niall is just leaving and if it weren't for the fact that they are standing by the door snogging, I would have gone there and said goodbye to Niall. 

"Bye Sally. Thanks for letting me come. It was great." I hear Niall say with a low voice. By the way he looks at her I'm pretty sure I'm not meant to hear this.

"Thank you for coming." She says and blushes a little. I love the way Niall makes her nervous, because I rarely see Sally nervous.

"I'll text you later." He whispers. "And I'll see you at the pool Monday" He says louder and gives me a little wave. I smile and wave back before he closes the door and leaves. When the door is closed she quickly turns to me and starts dancing around me. She grab my hands and spin around.

"Hey, what's up now?" I laugh and she continues to dance and smile. "Are you guys in love?" I continue and she stops abruptly. 

"Lola! You can't be in love with someone after just a month! That's not healthy at all." I try to look as I agree with her, but my mind drift off to Harry. After just a month of knowing Harry I thought I was in love. Now on the other hand I have no idea what's going on. It must be much easier for Sally. She's with a guy who knows what he wants and he doesn't change personality every four seconds. Maybe he likes Sally so much that he has changed to be with her and makes time to be with her. Does that mean that Harry does not like me enough? Not enough for him to change.

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I left Sally's house just over an hour ago and the time is now 3 pm. I still haven't eaten lunch, but to be honest, I don't really feel like it today. That's weird, I'm always hungry. I walk up to my room and turn the TV on. There's nothing worth watching on so I end up watching Disney Channel.

After a two hours of watching TV I get my phone out from my pocket. I'm very bored and in a moment weakness I start typing a text to Harry. He hasn't yet responded on my "good morning" text, but I see that he's read it.

Hey. What are you doing? I send. I don't know if he'll think I'm annoying for sending him texts all the time, but he seemed to like it yesterday.... Only seconds later I see that the text is read, but he doesn't start typing. I wait 15 minutes but there's still no reply when I check my phone again. What's that supposed to mean? He's read both my texts but he won't reply to any of them. Is it just me or is that very rude?

Why aren't you answering me Harry? I can see that you are reading my texts. I text again. I'm getting very annoyed and I don't care if he thinks I'm too much, because now I want to know why he suddenly became rude again. Yesterday he was lovely. Once again my phone tells me that he's read my text and once again there's no answer. What is wrong? Seriously? I don't know if I should get mad or worried? I wait another five minutes and then I get my phone and dial Harry's number. Just to be certain he won't ignore me I block my number. He answers on the third ring.

"Hello?" Harry's raspy voice says when he picks up. In just split seconds I debate with myself over what to say.

"Hi, it's me. Why are you ignoring my texts?" I really do try to sound confident and strict. I hear a long sigh at the other end of the line and I feel the annoyance growing inside of me.

"Lola I'm busy." He says with a short and cold voice. There's no feelings in his words.

"No your not! You read my texts and you answered the phone." I say into the phone in an attempt to sound equally as feelingless as him, but as the words leave my mouth, feelings are obvious.

"Then I guess I just don't want to talk to you." This time I sense anger in his voice and the words coming from him hurts me more then they probably should.

"What?" I whisper. Did I hear correctly? Did he just say that?

"You heard." He says quietly like he's not sure himself he said it.

"Are you okay?" I ask in one last attempt of being nice and finding out what's wrong.

"Stop worrying so much. You're not my mother. Gosh." He says and this pushes me off the edge.

"You can't do that! Harry, it's fine to have a bad day or a bad mood, but you can't one day be super nice and then the next be something completely different!" I yell this time. I don't know why I get so worked up, but I do.

"I don't have a bad day Lola! I just don't want to talk to you and you have to accept that!" He yells back. I can feel tears pressing their way out, but I try to hold them back.

"Harry! Talk to me! What's your problem?" I shout at the phone. I can't take this stupid back and forth game with him, and I can't take that I fall for it every time. Why do I even stick around to get hurt by him?

"My problem is that this psychotic girl won't leave me alone!" He yells and I feel like one of my lungs just got punctured. I'm just about to yell something back at him when he hangs up. In this moment I just wait for the tears to come streaming down, but they never come. Instead I surprise myself by getting my bag from my room and walk down to the hall and then outside. On my way out from the house I find myself dialing Niall's number.

"Oh hey Lola. What's up?" He says rather happily.

"Niall? Where is Harry?"