Worlds Apart - Taekook - Book 2

Chapter 247 - Strive

"I'm sorry."

Jungkook is taken aback as he hadn't been expecting to hear those two words quite so soon from his husband who could at times be as stubborn as he was.

"Are you ready to tell me what that was about?"

"Which part?"

"All of it, Tae."

"Are you mad?"

"Are you really asking me that?"

"I want to make it right."

"I'm not just mad, Tae... I'm hurt. You went against everything you've ever told me about stuff being ours. You made me feel like we aren't equal and I know that we aren't but... but for the first time you made me feel like shit."

"I'm sorry, Kookie... I am."

"Start talking then... I've just pulled up at home, I need to pack so if we get cut off I'll call you back when I'm in the apartment."

There's an audible sigh as the CEO's voice sounds, "When are you going?"

"As soon as Kyong has booked flights. He's going to call me."

"You don't need to book flights... you should use the plane... and before you say anything... I know... I'm a total arsehole for saying what I said and honestly? I didn't mean it. I realised something while you were in my office and it should be under different circumstances that we talk about it but Heeju raised it and I told her that I'd already thought about it... you shouldn't HAVE to ask me about the plane. It's never come up because I always arrange our travel but you should have access to everything and I will talk you through everything and make sure you have clearance so moving forwards, you don't have to ask me. You might not feel that we are equal and maybe financially we aren't but we can put things in place to give you equal rights... and you should have... we are a partnership... we are husbands and you should have access to everything I have."

Jungkook fights the urge to tell Tae that he doesn't want to use the plane now but even the sentence in his head sounds immature and pathetic, so he refrains. He also needs to broach the topic of the new house but that discussion should take place when he's calm and not as irritated as he is now. It will be difficult to forget the residual rejection from earlier, knocking walls down takes longer than the seconds it takes to raise them.

"Okay... thank you... and what about everything else? You can't seriously have thought that I would go along with your demand that I don't go? You must know that I don't take orders?"

"No, I didn't but I wasn't thinking about that. My emotions got the better of me. The first thing you said was that you needed to go home... Busan hasn't been your home since you left and I remember the first time you called my apartment home... it meant so much. There's a lot of negativity connected to Busan... connected to your family and it's no excuse but it started things off on the wrong footing and I spiralled from there."

Jungkook hadn't even realised that he'd said that and he'd returned Taehyung's call with no plans to apologise because he didn't think he had anything to apologise for but maybe he was wrong?

"I didn't know that I'd said that. It was automatic I suppose? Tae... Busan is where I grew up... it was my home for a lot longer than Seoul has been but YOU are my home above anything and anywhere else. . I'm sorry for making you feel like that."

"I'm scared of what Nuri could do... I didn't explain myself very well..."

"You didn't explain yourself at all." Jungkook corrects him.

"Does it matter now?"

"Yes it matters. I want to know why you thought you could tell me what to do like that? I want to know what was behind it because that's not the man I fell in love with."