My One And Only

My One And Only - Talk Talk and Talk

As I already known, He came to my house, yeah, like ten minutes ago, he's still talking to Louis. I don't know what Niall and Louis are talking about, I can't hear them from upstairs, but Louis told me that they need some privacy, and then Niall will come to see me. I know they are close, but this is unusual thing, they never really have serious conversation, I mean, not without me. After quite a while, I can hear they're coming up, so I run to my room, pretend that I don't do anything.

"Hey... can I come in?" he's standing in front of my room. Strange. It's seems like it's not him, he always come even I won't let him in, and just jump on to my bed, and do whatever he wants. Hmm... this is getting serious. "Yeah, sure, why not... You know you're more than welcome to come, right?" I said, while he's not answering but smile, he then sits on my bed. It's too quiet, so I turn on speaker and set my iPod, it is from him, my birthday present when I turned 15, two years ago, I never changed anything, we chose the songs together, and we put our favorite songs in it.

"Last night, I saw you and Liam holding hand, and I saw that he hugged you... He likes you, you know..." Ah... why is he in Liam's side? Should I tell him the truth? But, wait... So last night, he followed me home? And he saw everything, yes he just said that. "He's a real gentleman you know..."

"Niall, could you please stop... I don't like him, I know he likes me, but I can't..."

"Why?" This conversation is getting weird and weird and weird, why he's keep forcing me to be with Liam. Ahh.... why? why? why?

"Because I thought you'll be happy with him, you seems very happy when you're with him, and they way he looks at you, is the same way..."

"Same way what? I like someone else, okay?"

"Claudia..." He's looking at me straight in the eyes. I can't help it everytime he does that.

"Stop it Niall! Why do you want me to be with him? Why?" I don't know why, but I can feel my tears are falling, I guess I can't get mad at him and I can't tell him the truth and it's all just happening in my heart. It's just me that know everything and do nothing.

Someone is slightly opening the door, it's Louis, he can hear our voice from his room, which is just next door. "Is everything okay, guys? What is this? And why are you crying? You guys fight a lot but I think this is the worst I have ever seen..." said Louis, but the fact is we don't fight, we're just talking, and I cried cos I can't hold it anymore. It's just a talk, heavy talk. "Okay..." Louis exhales before he's talking to us again, "He just wanna help his friend, okay? Niall, Liam, me and the other lads, we know each other, and we are close friends... It's just Harry and Zayn are not going to the same school, we have music project together, and once Liam took his phone, and saw lots of your picture of you and him, and that's how everything started, okay?" he explained

"So you know everything?" I look at Louis, and he just nods, "And Niall, why do you do it? Seriously, you helped your friend, but didn't think about me? Didn't think about how I feel, and the whole time, pretend that you don't know him? Last night, pretend that you're introducing Liam to your friends?" He is not saying any words, he just listens to everything I said. "I thought you were the one that understand me, I thought you're my best friend...'

"Claudia, I am your best friend, we are still best friend... I thought you'll be happy with him, you never told me about the guy that you like or anything? So I guess I can help you..."

"That is not the way. I like someone, and it's none of your business..."

"Hey, sis... you can't say that, okay? He just wanna help both of you, and we know Liam is a good guy, that's why we planned it..." Louis is trying to calm me down, but he's involved in it, and he knows how I feel. "Louis, you can't say that to me... you know everything, you know who's the guy that has been on my mind the whole time... when you planned this? I bet you didn't think about anything, right?"

"Hey... I just thought that it was a good plan..." Louis said. This is confusing, I think I am lost in their thinking, I don't get why they did it, especially Louis who knows everything, he can say no and he can tell Niall to not doing this, I am confused, "Get out... both of you!"

"Claudia, please, listen to me..." Niall needs to give me explanation, but I cant hear more than this, right now, just not now, I need time.

"If you don't wanna get out, I'll go..." I know this was stupid, so I run without thinking about anything, I'm just so sensitive right now, and I can't be with them now, it's just make me feel weird. Don't you think I am weird? I should be happy if my best friend care and help me to be happy, but I can't and they lied to me, it shouldn't have to be this way, they shouldn't have lied to me about everything, and making up their own stories.

It's over, everything is over now. I feel like nothing now, really nothing. I thought he's just going to interogate me with bunch of questions, but it's end I ask lots of questions. huff... this isn't right, my heart, my mind, I messed everything up.