My One And Only

Intense!

"Are you sure? I can come with you..." Aaron is trying to convince me, so he could come with us. "Yeah, girls, we could come with you, it's not safe if tow girls walk around in a new place..." Bradley adds, they both want to come with us, not Enrique, we didn't tell him, because it's about Niall, not gonna work if he involves in any of this. Sorry, E...

"We will be fine... because Louis is going to pick us up, and we will be staying with them, so don't worry... right, Taylor?", "Of course, and we are leaving soon, your flight ticket will be expensive... just stay home, don't do stupid things..."

"Okay, let us know if you need anything, okay? Love you little one! Take care and just call me after everything?" Aaron is so worried, we are having a long weekend, so, Taylor and I are going to Miam, to see One Direction, and I need to talk to Niall about so many things. "Don't worry, brother! I'll be fine... bye!" we hug each other, and I'm going inside for check in and flight soon!

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We are in MIAMI!!!! In the hotel with Louis and Eleanor, and Taylor of course, the other boys have no idea that I'm here, didn't tell them anything, cos I don't want this to be big things, they include Niall, he doesn't know, after what he did to me? I haven't talked to him, and haven't replied any of his messages. I'm gonna talk to him tonight, or as soon as possible. I made up my mind, I know what I'm gonna do, I already thought about it even before we came here.

"Sure you want to do this?" Louis asks me, "What are you gonna do?" He asks again, "Don't worry, I think I'm going to talk to him now, wish me luck...", "Okay, let's come upstairs, Taylor, you can come with us, meeting the boys, and they can have their own space in the room..." he says again.

We are going to Niall's room, it's actually Niall and Liam's room, when we come, everyone is there. Niall, Liam, Zayn, Harry, Josh, Dan, Shoney, Lou and others, they are watching movie. They are quite surprised to see me here.

"Hey little one!" Harry comes to me and hugs me, "Vas Happenin! Why didn't you tell us that you're coming, we could pick you up..." you know this guy, it's Zayn, he gave me a super tight hug, while Liam walks towards me, he smiles, and kisses my cheeks, "My little baby!!" he says, "I know why do you come here, I'll make everyone out... let me know if you need anything... we're next door..." he whispers, and give people sign to leave the room, Ahh... that awkward smiles that given to me from everyone in the room, everyone.

After everyone left, I take steps forward, moving closer to Niall, and sit next to him.

"I'm sorry..." he says. "I'm sorry too, Niall, I made up my mind, and I don't want to hear anything from you, I think it's better if we stop it now..." I say, yes, I made my mind, I don't wanna do this anymore, I'm so tired of everything, and I think this is the right time to finish everything.

"What do you mean stop it now? I don't want our relationship over, I love you... Tell me what I have to do to fix it? Second chance? I know that was my fault, I was so drunk and I didn't remember anything, it's just happened..." he is trying to explain, but no matter what it won't change my mind.

"I can't do it anymore, this is too hard, you always nowhere near me, and there always gonna be girls around you, you always busy with lots of things, and your home is in London, if you have break, you're going to London or visit the rest of your families in Ireland, so really, there is no point of us..." I'm jealous, I'm so jealous, millions of girls around him while I can't, and that's a bit too much, I can't handle it, the more I try, the more it hurts me, and after the news a week ago, I think that's it, I don't wanna do anymore of this, no more long distance relationship, no more Niall, just no more.

"I don't understand, so sudden, you just change your mind... don't you love me? Look at me, Claudia, look at me..." Please don't make me do this, I can't look at his face. I still love him, I know deep down, I love him more than anything in this world, but it's just, not gonna work, not now.

"You can't do it because you love me and you know that... Is this because of Enrique too?" he asks, I barely talk to Enrique now, so he is not the reason why.

"Niall, it's not him, it's just that I can't do this anymore, you know what I mean...", "No, I don't... I don't understand..." he cut me off, "When you made out with Enrique or whatever you did with Enrique, I gave you second chance..."

"It's not about the chance, my heart changes, I made up my mind already..."

"I'm sorry, I'm so sorry, it's all my fault...", "Niall, please stop saying sorry, it won't change anything... I know, Enrique was a mistake, thank you for your second chance, but I just feel our relationship is not right if both of us doing it too each other, what's the point of being relationship if it doesn't make you happy?"

"But I'm happy with you, babe, aren't you happy?? Or weren't you happy?" he said, I was happy, that's past, and we are talking about now and the future ahead us. I'm not gonna change my mind, even I still love him, and it hurts me the most to see Niall like this. I just have to do it for our own good, if we're done now, we are not gonna hurt each other and still can be friend.

"Niall, I was happy, I am, just not strong enough to handle everything... I think it's better this way, I want to do my things, you can do your own things, if you want to date another girl, than you can date her... We can't do long distance relationship, it's not working, and just going to hurt both of us, just please, you will find someone else, someone that loves you..."

"Okay, whatever you say, whatever you want... so this is goodbye, isn't it? You were the best part of my life, and you will always be, I'm sorry I hurt you too much, I can't keep you safe, I can't be by your side when you needed me the most, I wasn't there on your difficult times, to hold you, wipe your tears away, I can't make you smile, I can't make you happy, I'm sorry if I'm busy all the time, I'm sorry if there tons of girls around me, just so you know, you are the one... I love you, I still love you, I'm sorry if I didn't put much effort as you did, I didn't spend more time with you, I wish you nothing but the best..." he kisses my head, and just holds me in his arms for awhile, and he walks out of the room.

Once he's gone, I break down, tears streaming down my face, I've been holding it since we start our conversation. Louis, Eleanor, Taylor, Harry and Zayn are here. They're watching me, crying, while Liam is with Niall, he is the only person that can talk to Niall and calm him down.

"Hey, stop crying, baby, please, what did he say?" Louis hands me water and tissue paper, "He said he is sorry... why do you guys ask me? Weren't you all outside eavesdropping our conversation..." they laugh, that awkward laugh, because they are not impressed with what just happened here between me and Niall.

"Okay, get up... let's go somewhere, the reason I come here with you is gonna make you feel better and put a smile on your face, let's go to the beach..." Taylor said, break the silence.

"Sorry, Tay, I want to,  but I'm just gonna go alone, I need me time, and lads, sorry for the mess and you have to take care Niall later on..."

"Are you sure this is final decision? Are you sure you are not gonna change your mind again?" Zayn asked, I nod, because I'm pretty sure, this is gonna be the last time, this is the end of Niall and I, I don't see any future between us, as best friend, yes, but not couples. Oh, Claudia, you're such an idiot!!!

"Little one, are you gonna be okay? Out there by yourselves? I can go with you..." Harry offered, "I'll be just fine, thanks Harry..."

"We'll come with you..." Eleanor said, "If she said she'll be okay, she will, take care, just bring your phone..." but Louis cut everyone off, he kisses my head, and let me go by myself. I really need my own time, without anyone, I just more comfortable alone, and do all the things I want, and no one will care what I'm doing.

I'm sorry, Niall, I'm so sorry, I just can't deal with any of this anymore.

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