My One And Only

The Concert!! :D

Tonight is the night! Yay!! So excited!!

"See, I told you, the dress look good on you..." Taylor convinces me. We went to buy the dress together, like two days ago. There were some choices, but she said this one is the best. She even helped me with my make up; she is good at it.

"Thanks, Taylor... thank you for the make up, and the hair..."

"No worries, hunny... It's a pleasure to picked the dress, do make up and hair for the chosen one..." she hugs me tight, I love this girl, my first friend in Los Angeles. I think she changed me a little bit. We love to go shopping together, and since she bought girly stuffs, I kinda like girly stuff, I even bought a set of make up.

"Aw... thank you, but I'm not the chosen one, I'm just lucky...", "You are lucky to get that beautiful voice... anyway, let's get in..." we are now getting to the red carpet, they're gonna take a picture of us, and put in on the school's blog and magazine, and newspaper. It's a big night for our university! We meet up with Aaron, Bradley and Enrique. I run into Aaron, most likely jump on him, and he catches me, good reflect. We both laugh. "Umm... my brother looks beautiful..." he says, hugs me again and kisses my forehead.

"Brother?" I ask him jokingly, "You know I love you, Claudia, my little brother, oops, my little sister...." he always said that he loves me as a brother, I love Aaron too, my big brother from another parents.

"You two, stop, we're almost on the photo spot... And Claudia, no hug for me?" Brad is complaining, I mean, he has Taylor on his arms, they are not dating, almost there, but not yet, they take it slowly. They made up couple of times, but not there yet. They are compatible, they're favourite song is the same, hobbies, favourite food, pretty much everything.

I hugs him anyway, "You really are look good, brother..." Bradley emphasize the word brother, imitating Aaron. I wanna move to Enrique, but we are still in this awkward phase. Haha... so nah... not into any interaction with 'comfort' feeling. "Haha... funny Bradley... I hope you guys get together, gonna be a cute couple!" I say randomly, I don't know why I said it, but yeah, I just did. Taylor hit my arm, but Bradley take Taylor closer in her arms, and they kiss. They just make me miss Niall. He is coming in January, soon.

"Okay, let's go.. our moment..." Taylor pushes me before I have to move to Enrique and involve in this romance things. Enrique just looks at me. We know we can't talk right now, we have to figure this feeling out first.

We took the picture. Aaron is on my right side, and then Taylor, Bradley is next to her, and last Enrique. Taylor and Aaron, mostly Aaron, try to keep me away from Enrique, when we were in class, he will sit between us, so I don't have to talk to Enrique. He even swapped group with me and Enrique, so he is my partner and Enrique with the other.

We get in to the building, Aaron takes me to the backstage, meeting Margie and the rest of the teachers who was there first to take care of everything. "Hey... look at this girl, you look great..." Margie compliments me, "And Aaron, are you her date for tonight?" Joe asks him, he just laugh it off, "I'm just protecting her, and How could I date my brother..." he explaines while putting his arms around me neck, pretends that he choke me. "Hey, Aaron, grab the flowers, give it to her after her performances, okay?" Margie smiles to Aaron, tap my arm and go, leave us with Joe who is still giving me instruction for the performance.

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The one and only, Claudia...

I sing The Voice Within by Christina Aguilera and Impossible by Shontelle, two different songs, the first song is about being strong, and the second song is about brokenhearted, I just love the song and the meaning of it, it's not really for Niall, because he never talked bad about me, but he is strong, while I'm not, some suit us, some not. I'm still gonna send it to Niall, and again Aaron take the videos. He does everything, my brother! Haha...

Hmm... The party is so good, meeting new people, the interesting ones. Great people, great, great people. We have such a great conversation about the future after I graduate. Everything is just perfect! Haha... Life isn't always easy, it's not always good and beautiful. It seems that my life is great, but I've been tortured with my own feeling, missing Niall, put myself in doubt, thought that I'm not good enough, the mix feeling between Niall and Enrique, and the worst one is when I miss my home and people back home, it was so bad, it damaged me to the core. But after quite awhile, with the support of the teachers and friends, making me stronger, and after that life 's treating me well and it's beautiful now.

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Just as the welcome party night, Aaron took me home, and he is staying over tonight. He said he is tired and he doesn't wanna walk home. His apartment is not that far, like three blocks away, he just being lazy. Haha... and gonna walk in the morning or afternoon tomorrow. We are two lazy people. We both love watching movie before sleeping, Watch anything that is on at this time.

Aaron took blankets and pillows from my room and set it in the living room, while I'm changing. When I'm done, I prepare tea for us, just because I can't sleep without drinking tea; Aaron is also changing to Niall's clothes, the suit is just not comfortable to sleep with.

"You were so good before, you know, Enrique couldn't take his eyes off of you..." Aaron laughs.

"Aaronnn!! That is not funny at all! And, how do you know that he was looking at me?" he was backstage, and quite far from the audience.

"Because I was on the backstage, and he came later on stood next to me, so you know, he wanted to see you closer... You know he likes you a lot, maybe you should give him a chance..."

"Aaron, but you know that I love Niall, and Niall loves me, we are great, I don't need any other men in my life... I like Enrique as a friend, I don't want my life to be more complicated... It's already complicated..."

"What about me? I'm a man, you don't need me in my life?" he asks and looks at me, gives me his devious smile, waiting for an answer. "I need you of course, you are a brother to me...", "Yeah, you are a brother to me too... I don't know how is Enrique in love with you.." he laughs, then we both shut until he added again, God, we can't stop talking if we are together, just like Louis and I when we're home, "But I love you too, I care about you..." he is joking, he laugh his ass off, on the couch.

"I understand, but your love is different... I love you too, Aaron, but I don't wanna be your girlfriend, do you get the different? And I have boyfriend, what part that he doesn't understand?"

"Because you are being weak, you showed him your weak side, he is right next to you and he wants to protect you, and your biggest fault is, showing him your loneliness, you guys spend too much time together, and you rely on him, that how he fall in love with you... so my opinion, be strong and show him no weakness, just like when you sang before..." he tells me the truth, right from the start it was my fault, being a baby towards him.

"Drink your tea and go to bed, now, don't think about Enrique, I'll take care of it..." he says again. This is sick, he is just as understand me as Louis. Are they twin that seperated from birth, by any chance? And he is my real brother, but the problem is, him and Louis, they don't have the same look at all. They both tall and good looking, pretty eyes, but not the same.

Ahh... I don't know, we will figure it out when they are meeting, face to face. ;)