My One And Only

My One And Only - Mix Feeling

It's been two days I haven't seen Enrique. And I've been thinking, that it was my fault, giving him false hope and kept relying on him. I'm close to him because I miss Niall, and he is there, he is the only there around, that staying by my side, and he was always there, always. And I just used him to comfort me. He called me so many times, I didn't answer him. I am so confused with my self, my heart is divided to two now. Niall and Enrique. What a bitch I am?

I just keep my self busy with shit loads of things, just do all the works, and more practices. So I don't have to think or to feel thing, Just be free for a moment, until I found myself on the right track.

Hey Lou... Where are you now? I call Louis, I don't really miss him that much, I just need someone to talk to. When I said I wanna call him, I haven't, I know he is busy, so I call him after I talked to Eleanor last night and talked to her about what I feel. She didn't say much, she told me to do what is right for me right now. I remember exactly what she said, The most important thing is what you feel right now, do what you think is right for you. It is now that matter the most. She is right, I am just not sure what I want right now. I love Niall, but I like the fact that Enrique is here for me, he gives me what I want and what I need.

Hey, babe... I'm at home doing nothing, before going to states next month. Why? Do you miss me already? Eleanor told me something, is that why you call? he asks, he gets me right as always. I think the brother and sister connection between us is strong.

Yeah, about that. What should I do, Lou? I kissed him, and now I don't know who I want the most.

I actually don't know, did you kiss him first? Is he nicer, better than Niall?

He kissed me first, but I kissed him back, so you know, it's about the same sin. He is nice, but I don't know about the part better than Niall. They both are good guys.

Have you tell Niall about it? At least, be honest to him, and see how he respond it. I wish I could help you more than this...

No I haven't. I'm thinking about doing it, but not sure yet, I don't want to lose him.

See, that's the answer, you don't want to lose Niall. Problem solved! But I think you should talk to him still, no matter what happened, I'm on your side. You've been hurt by Niall by doing this long distance, last time, he called you because I got so mad and asked him to call you, he was there, listening to you crying. I don't know how much do you guys love each other, but if it keeps hurting each other, it's not love, it's just a game.

I will call him after this. I know, I know, but I love him, Lou... I don't wanna lose him, We were best friend before we became couple. I don't want to lose my guy, and I don't want to lose my best, best friend.

So do what you things is right. Live life for the moment, because everything else is uncertain. Babe, listen, do things that make you happy. Call me anytime you need me, okay? Just text me before you called me? Maybe I'm busy, doesn't pick up your call, you will get mad at me...

I love you, brother... I will, but I won't get mad at you, you are now the biggest boyband in the world, I know you are busy, and I believe if you miss my call, I believe you will call me back, or text me random things... or maybe just a dot.

Hahaha... I love you, babe... Call Niall now... I'll talk to you later, Mom's calling, bye...

Love you Lou, tell them I said Hi! Bye bye...

We both hang up the phone at the same time We kinda hate to decide who is gonna hang up first, we did it so many times before, and ended up no one hangs up the phone until the next five minutes. Haha.. That was fun time though, more time to talk to each other.