My One And Only

Broken

I've been trying to reach Claudia so many times, and now, she is here, in Miami. We talked, and as you know, it didn't go well. She broke up with me, she wanted to over this relationship, I know it's my fault, I snogged another girl and go on a date with her. I thought, if I explained it to her, she would understand. Everything is just out of my hand now, I really shoudn't have gone to that welcome party, I should have stayed at the hotel with the lads.

The fact that she broke up with me, I still can't believe it, I mean, when she did it with Enrique, I want her back, I gave her second chance, but now, no second chance, I couldn't even explain everything. This is mad, I know there must be another reason behind this, it's not only me, but something else.

"Niall, don't cry, we hate to see you cry, you are like our little brother, let's go back, everyone is worried, because you just left, without saying any words..." Liam comes and sits next to me, "Claudia needs time, for everything..." I'm crying because I'm angry to meself, I know I'm the one who created the mess, and I couldn't explain anything, and because Claudia is not my baby anymore, yeah, she's not.

"I know this is my fault, I wish she would listen, but she wouldn't... she said, this is the best for us..."

"Maybe it is... I'm gonna be honest with you, she called before these things happened, she said, she can't handle anymore long distance relationship, and she hates it when lots of girls flirting with you, the point is, she told me she had enough, but she didn't want to break your heart, she wanted to protect you and the relationship as well, but if something that hurt her happened, she will break up with you... and it did happen, I should've told you, but she was crying and begging me not to telling you, I'm sorry, mate..."

"Did she really say that? Did she tell you that? Why she never told me that she doesn't like it... Liam, you know that she is the most beautiful girl in this world, what if she got boyfriend, and I don't have any chance to get her back?" I ask, and he doesn't say anything. I think Liam doesn't know what to do too. He looks at me and the sky, and look at me again, and the sky again. Then, he shakes his head, he couldn't find any answer for this problem. Even Daddy Direction has no idea what to do, how supposed I know what I'm gonna do after this, what I'm gonna do without Claudia, what I'm gonna do to get her back? What am I gonna do if she got new boyfriend who is better than me? What if this is really over, for our relationship and our friendship too? What if we don't talk for forever after this, what if she doesn't want to see me? Ah... this is crazy!!!

"She is beautiful, Niall, trust me, if you guys are meant to be together, love will fine it's way. Don't force everything, just give her time, because at this very moment, talking to her it's not a good idea... let's go..." he says, "Where is she?", "She should be at the hotel with the lads... and just so you know, she cried, it's a hard decision for her, the distance it's a bit too much for her, she is still so young and she has lots of thing in her mind, and I think it will be the best for you and her, a little bit of break, and if you want to date another girl, get more experience in life..."

"But what if this is really over, what if we can't be friend anymore? We were best friend, everything is changing from now on, isn't it? It's gonna be hard to live without her, especially if she is with someone else... I screwed this one up, because of my stupidity, I lose her... what an idiot..."

"Niall, just please don't think about that..." we are back at the hotel now, and she is not anywhere, not in my room, not Louis's room, not in Harry's too, and not in her room, not with Taylor. She must be out by herself, she always does that, when we fight, even as best friend, she always left and just go for a walk or shop or eat somewhere just by herself. She just loves doing it, put herself in danger, not really danger, but she is by herself, what if someone buy her drink, put things on her drink, and she's gone, no one can protect her, and the worst part, I don't know where she is, and she's not gonna pick up her phone. I know, I just know.

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"Guys, it's already 8, shouldn't we call her?" Taylor asks everyone, she is worried, and of course I am worried, everyone is. "I've been trying to call her so many times, she didn't pick up..." Harry added, you can tell that he is as worried as I am, and it's obvious that he still has that feeling. He still has it.

"It's been 5 hours, guys, Louis... please call her, she might pick up if you call..." Eleanor told Louis to call her sister, he gets his phone and is trying to call her.

"I'm going guys, I'll find her..." I'm gonna find her, I know this place it's huge, but I'm gonna find her, I will always find her, we have this connection, and it's just, I'm sure I will find her.

"Me too, I'm going with you, Niall..." Liam said, "Guys, you know the rules, you have things to do tomorrow, and start early morning... and I'm sure she will come back soon, I'll find her, Dan, Josh and Sandy, you guys will come with me and we will find her... We are leaving in half an hour..."

"Hey, babe... where are you? We are so worried, come home now! It's been five hours, please come home..." finally someone can reach her, and talk to her to know whether she's okay or not.

Hey Lou, Hey guys, I know you are there, everyone, don't worry, I'll be home soon, don't go look for me, I'll be fine, and be home soon... You know me, Louis, I always do that, so don't worry...

"Of course we are worried, little one..." Harry replied her, and I really don't know what to say, and I don't have I'm in the place to say something. I'm also afraid to say my words, I'm afraid if I said something, it might hurt her more and she's not coming back. I'm just gonna shut my mouth, and not gonna say anything.

Harry, don't... Guys, I'll be home before ten, okay? So just relax... I fine now, and I will be fine...

"Baby, just tell us where are you? Paul, Dan, Sandy and Josh will come to pick you up..." Liam asked her, but she doesn't speak, she won't tell us anything. Guys, I'm fine, I'll be home before eleven, I promise, I came here today to make everything right and not make you guys worried, I'm sorry if everyone has to fix this, and take care of everything... Once again, I'm sorry, I'll be home, and this is the last time I will bother, interrupt, annoy and irritate you guys... I'll see you guys soon...

And she hangs up on us. At least we know she is fine and we don't have to worry, even I am still so worried.

"She never annoyed us, troublesomed, but that's why we love her..." Zayn said. "Indeed... I love her around us... she makes us smile, most of the time...", "Of course, she's my sister..."

I really wanna say that it's because she is my girlfriend, unfortunately she is not anymore. I just wish she's coming back here safely.

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