My One And Only

My One And Only - Confession

It's been three days we didn't talk. I don't know what should I do if I see him right now. I can't deny it, I miss him, a lot. It's never been this quiet before, my life is empty. It's not he's not trying to talk to me, Niall, he tried so many times, I just kept denying it and ignore him, what a bad person I am. As well as Louis, he knocked on my door so many times, tried to talk to me everytime we're together but yes, I ignore him. That is why my life is so empty now, no Niall, no Louis, just me, my self.

In class by my self, Niall hasn't even try to see me today. But, I'll be fine, cos it's soon gonna be weird if we talk, where the anger still here, I know it's just not gonna work. Only time can answer it. We have to understand the situation, is not a good time to talk about the problem, since I'm still a bit angry. Yes, to face and solve our problem with people around your, first thing first, we need to calm down, and try to reduce the amount of our anger, when we're calm, then we can start to talk with a cold head, cos if we're not, not only  can't talk properly, and solve it, but it's more likely that we make another problem with the other person. You know, when we're angry, we can't think properly, we just said anything we want without thinking and might hurt someone; we only listen to our anger, and we only think about ourself, and yes it's going to get worse. So, that's why I don't wanna talk to anyone, later but not now. I'm not ready to hear the rest of the story.

So, I'm going home by myself, no one's gonna pick me up and bring me back home, all alone.

When I get home, Louis is already waiting for me in front of our house, he waves and smile. Not that smile again, my only brother, he knows my weakness, and his sweet smile is my weakness, and that's what I've been trying to ignore. And here we go again.

'My little sister, I'm sorry... I know that was my mistake to helped them, but I couldn't tell Niall about your feeling, right? So I have to di it anyway. Am I right?"  He said and asked me, he's kinda right, okay no, he is right. "Will you forgive me? And Niall aswell? He's upstair, your room..."

"Ah... okay... When he's already here, what can I do? I can't run away, right?" I said. Louis grab my hand and escorted me to my own room. I stood there for a while, until he tap my shoulder and smile, this one is the serious smile. When he smile the way he smile right now, he tell you that everything will be okay without saying the words, and he will make sure that it is okay. So I walk into m my room, and Louis close the door and lock it from outside. Niall is standing in the middle of the room, just next to my bed.

"Hey... how are you? It's been a long time... haven't come to this room and talk to you properly..." Niall said. He then sit down on my bed, and ask me to sit next to him, and I do ask he say, maybe this is the right time to tell him about my feeling, and end everything. "It's just three days..."

"Yes three days of madness and emptiness in my life..."
"I know I'm your best friend, but just stop talking that way..."
"I'm being serious, that night when I saw you on the coffee shop..."
"Yeah, why? You look so surprised. What was it?"
"You were just beautiful, simply beautiful, I never thought that you can be a girly girl..."
"Thank you, but it was a date, so I have to do something, you know..." I smile and he smile back at me, he understand my position that night.
"I was just wondering why you never dressed up when you're with me?"
"Niall, cos it was never a date... So I don't really care..."
"But you know, it doesn't matter for me, whether you dressed up or not, make up or not, you always beautiful for me, always..." my face is turning red, did he just said that? He did say that, his face also turning red, as red as my face. He pull me closer to him, so I lean on his shoulder. "I miss you..." I told him what I really feel.

He smiles and stands up, then kneels down in front of me, "I miss you too..." he said as he touch my cheeks with his soft hand, then my eyes, and last my lips, before he put his hand on my cheeks, "I'm sorry, I made you cry, I didn't understand, I lied, I didn't think about you and I keep deny and hide my feeling..." he's in silence, I can see he's thinking, God, why am I so sensitive? Now, the tears come down because he's being really sweet, "Don't cry... did I hurt you again?" he asks me, he knows that I'm crying.

"No, I'm fine, you're just so sweet... This is a good cry..." he wipes my tears, and stop it with a kiss, he put his lips against mine. It's warm, I can feel his soft lips, I can't deny it or push him away, cos this is what I want it, he is so gentle, this is a perfect first kiss. "I love you..." he whispers, "I love you too..." Finally this day is here, the day I've been waiting for. The day I'll be the happiest girl in the world, and yes, I am now the happiest girl in the world. He pulls me closer and kisses me again. When he stops, we both giggle, he looks at me in the eyes. And he jump on me, and wrestle just like what we used to do before the fight, run to each other, make fun of each other, pull pranks, and wrestles. Today I know I don't lose my best friend, he is now become my boyfriend, and he stays with me forever. Nothing change, nothing, it's just we are one step ahead from before. :)