My One And Only

My One And Only - Getting Better?

LOS ANGELES!

Everything is pretty much back to  normal, Niall and I, we talked last week on the phone. That was so good, I told him what is in my mind; he explained lot of things. We totally talked heart to heart. I'm getting busy, because have assessments due soon, songwriting and some performances. Niall is as busy as I am, he has too many things to do, signing, meet and greet, you know, just what musician do in their whole life. We haven't contacted each other, yet, but I'm fine, we have a deal.

The school is keeping me busy, I'm exhausted, and not really care about other things, this things include Niall. I still think of him, but not as much as the previous week, and the previous week and the previous week. I am happy with us right now.

"Hey, Claudia, you are here, sorry Imma bit late..." Mr. Randy just get in to his office, I have vocal practice with him till eight o'clock. He is specialise in jazz, he is a funny lecture, he never gets mad if I do something wrong when practicing. He is a bit strict, but okay, he is so passionate about music. We talked a lot, since we have 3 hours in every of our sessions.

"It's okay, Mr. Randy...", " Oh, Claudia, how many times I have to tell you stop calling me mister, I feel old whenever I heard mister..." He laughs, he is still quite young, 30 something, I just feel weird to call him Randy, but I will try.

"Okay, Randy..." He smiles and nods, "Okay, I want you to sing this song, you're familiar with it, right?" He gives me the paper, it's Fly Me To The Moon, of course I'm familiar with it, it's a great romantic song! One of the greatest I think. He starts playing from his piano, tell me the note.

"Aaa....", "Aaa...". After awhile of heating up, he asks me to start singing. Fly me to the moon, and let me play among the stars........

"Claudia, I want you to feel the song, feel the music, let it gets into you, Jazz is about sexiness, the music itself gives an energy to the room, it's heating up the room, so I want you to take the sexiness from the music, feel it, and apply it to your singing, you sound great, but I want you to feel this song..." His advice is help me to get through the jazz performance next week. Yes, jazz is the first performance, followed by any music, followed by pop and others, I can't remember.

"Okay, start over..." So, I start the song from the start.

As I said before, his advice helps, but I still can't apply it, I don't get it correctly, I can feel it. "Let me show you... Listen, you sing like this..." He starts sing the song the way I sing it, "I want you to sing like this..." Then he shows me how to do it correctly, "Could you tell the difference?" He asks, and I just nod, because I'm speechless, he is awesome! I got goosebumps. "Do you get it now?" I nod again, and we start all over again. I thought I did pretty well, but apparently not, because he stops. God, I'm disappointed him.

"Claudia, are you okay? You need to focus, listen, I don't know what is wrong with you and Enrique, but don't let your relationship become obstacle for your future..." whoa.. whoa... Enrique?

"Randy, you got this wrong, Enrique? There is nothing between me and Enrique... I think I'm just tired, because people are pushing me too far from my limit..." I explain to him, this is misunderstanding that I need to fix this.

"Really? I thought he is your boyfriend..." he really never read the magazines, I think he is not into this gossip things. "Okay, don't talk about any other things, let's talk about you, We are not pushing you too far, but we just know that there is something more in you, we are exploring you, to get you to the new level... I know that this scholarship is a burden to your shoulder, you have to meet our expectation, but forget about it, you already did meet our expectation, you are doing what you love, aren't you? So just do it, you just gotta do it, don't even think about it..." He says, he knows exactly that meeting the school expectation is my burden. Hit me right through my head. "Okay let's go..." he wants me to continue the practice, so I start singing again, and I'm gonna do the best I can do, I don't want to let him down, again for the day.

Fly me to the moon, let me sing among the stars, let me see what spring is like, on Jupiter and Mars.

In other words, hold my hand, In other words, baby kiss me. Fill my heart with song let me sing forever more, you are all I long for all I worship and adore. In other words, please be true, In other words, I love you...

"That's why I'm talking about! You feel the music, you are just go with the music... just boom! fantastic!" he laughs, because I hit it! Thank God, that I did this, "You killed this song, this is not the hardest song, but I love the way you sing it with sexiness, that is what jazz about...."

"Thank you...", "Your welcome, let's just finished this, I'm happy now, and you should be happy, and girl, don't ever think about meeting our expectation..." he states again, because what he said to me just now, I feel a big relief, somehow, he tooks all the burden that is in my head. He really is a great eachers. Thank you, Randy, thank you.

Margie just come in and joining us. She sits with us, and gives me this letter, they are waiting for me to open it and read it, yup, in front of them. I'm getting nervous now, what the hell is this letter about, both of Randy and Margie smile at me. Fuck opening the letter slowly, I just tear the envelopes apart. I don't know what is inside, seems like good news, because they both smile at me.

They invite me to come to the anniversary of our uni, in two weeks. Yeah, I heard about that, their 20th anniversary. The good news is they ask me to perform in the anniversary. Not everyone's invited to perform, this is another way for my career. I believe in myself now, I made a great decision for my life, and that is the best decision I've ever made. "Thank you, Margie, Randy, this is a real honour..." I tell Margie and Randy, they hug me, "I'm so proud of you, keep up the good work, girl..." Margie smiles and hugs me again. This is the best day of my life!! Haha...

***

Yeah, everything is getting better, I guess. After I fixed the whole Niall and I thing, everything is just put in a place, and good one. It's teaching me to never doubt my self, and every decision that I made. I don't regret my decision, and being long distance relationship with Niall. It's all good.