My Silent Melodies ➵ [ my life 2015-16 ]

8/6/15 • Cute...

So this chapter will probably sound really conceited, and I apologize ahead of time.

Now let me start off by explaining that I am a short person with my max height projected to be 5'3", the height I am now. And since I'm small most "compliments" I get are where I'm called cute.

"You're so cute!"

"All the guys at camp just called you really cute."

"You're cute because you're so short!"

"You are honestly cute."

"Kelsey you look so cute."

"Well I think you're cute because you're so small, you're just naturally cute."

Cute. Cute. Cute, it's always just cute. Rarely will I get called beautiful and the only person to call me adorable has been Gabbie, thank Mavis for her. I get that it's great to be complimented, and that a lot of people don't even get called cute. But when you're constantly only ever called cute simply because of the size of your body the compliments loose their effect real quick.

I've been called sexy before, but only by guys online who wanted to solicit me for pics which is just gross. And one guy who actually wanted to have sex with me and that was scary. Anyway, that's for another time.

There comes a point in time when cute as a compliment just fades into the background, it's hard to take it genuinely because that's all I've been called for years... Of course I have been called other things, I'm not forgetting those times at all. But they are so few in number compared to the times I've been called cute. I'm sick of being called cute, I don't want to just forever be cute. It's really selfish and conceited to be like that isn't it?

Just writing this makes me think of all my friends who hardly receive compliments at all, and I feel bad for complaining. I just find that over time as people use that one compliment for me over and over it looses its meaning.

This chapter will probably be deleted later because of how horrible it sounds... I'm sorry for being self centered on this, I just have to post it for a little while to feel better.