The Phantomhive Cafe (Sebastian Michaelis x GN!reader)

The Rocky Rekindling

"So you're still struggling?"

Sebastian looked up at you from the dishes he'd been washing alongside you. You had mostly managed to piece back together your relationship over the past few days, but things were still rough to say the least. You could sense the internal struggle he was going through, that odd look he'd give you whenever he thought you weren't looking. The way his brow furrowed ever so slightly. Most people wouldn't notice, you did. And it surprised him a bit. Only Ciel had been able to notice those subtle shifts in his expression. Now he had someone else who could somehow read him like a book.

But of course, he brushed you off. "What do you mean?"

You sighed, placing a plate in the rack. "You still have no idea how to process the fact that you can feel love and stuff."

Sebastian stared at you for a moment before humming and continuing to scrub dishes. "And if I am?"

"Then you should talk to someone about it." You glanced up at him. "That someone being, I dunno, your partner." You elbowed him playfully, getting a soft chuckle out of him.

Sebastian smiled down at you, drying his hands before resting one on the small of your back. "After work. I'll stop by your apartment for a bit, then we can talk."

You couldn't help but feel a bit disappointed, the end of work was hours away, but at least this was progress. You were actually chipping away at the big bad demon. You leaned up, pressing a quick kiss to his cheek before continuing with dishes.

"Better not back out on me, Michaelis. Or no Huxley for a month."

"Oh, the torture." Sebastian said, returning a kiss to the top of your head.

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"Alright, Sebastian. Your free therapy starts now." You said casually as you sat on your bed.

Sebastian smiled, finding your faux professional demeanor amusing. He sat next to you, pulling you close. You felt your heart flutter at the contact. You leaned into him.

"Yeah, sure, cuddles too." You shrugged.

The butler breathed a laugh, rubbing your back. "Why do you seem more nervous about this than I am?"

You arched a brow. "You're nervous?"

"Perhaps."

You hummed, pleasantly surprised. "It's not every day you've gotta comfort your demon boyfriend." You plopped back on the bed, pulling him with you. Sebastian let out a soft grunt, propping himself up on an elbow.

He looked down at you, "It's also not every day someone catches me off guard." He looks you over before meeting your gaze again. "Are cuddles required for this?"

"C'mon, we never get good cuddle opportunities!"

"I've never been much of a cuddler."

"Get over here before I change my mind."

Sebastian couldn't help but smile, deciding to give in and lay with you. He allowed you to hug your arms around him, his chin resting on your shoulder. He felt his shoulders relax as the sound of your pulse met his ears. It was a strange feeling. This human who had managed to break through to him this much was holding him like he was some lost child in the cold. He found himself pressing is face into the crook of your neck and grasping gently at the back of their shirt. They sat in silence for a while. Then their voice broke through the silence, that voice that somehow managed to make the demon feel warmth he hadn't felt in centuries.

"Talk to me."

Sebastian held them a bit tighter. Eventually he managed to find his words. "You're strange. All of this is strange." He sighed. "I've had plenty of lovers, and only once or twice have they made me feel the way you do. And one of them wasn't even human." He paused for a moment before continuing. "And Ciel... He's the most interesting human I've ever made a contract with. He's intelligent and yet still a child, he makes that clear. He has a soul that would've been the most delectable if it hadn't been snatched from my hands all those years ago. I should be angry that I can't eat it any longer, and I am but... I'm not angry at him. I fear I might care for him."

You listened to every word. You pulled back from the hug. "You care about him. And I think the more you deny it, and the more you deny the fact that you can feel, the more shut off you become."

Sebastian stared down at you, "Demons are meant to see themselves as above humans, because we are."

"Yeah, but that doesn't mean it's healthy." You sat up, cupping his cheek. "Sebastian, you're allowed to feel your feelings. You're allowed to care for Ciel and I. Hell you've been with Ciel so long that it's hard to deny at this point that you care for him."

Hesitantly, Sebastian leaned into your touch. He cupped the back of your hand and pressed a kiss to your palm. "If I had said these things to another demon, I'd have been either ostracized or killed on the spot for being soft."

You snorted, "Wow, so you're all emo."

Sebastian scoffed, a playful smile on his lips. "I tell you my feelings and you call me emo. I'm wounded."

You burst into laughter, leaning into him. Eventually he joined you in laughter. He smiles warmly at you.

"You're horrible at comforting people."

"Well I can't say I've ever comforted a demon before."

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Notes:

I wrote this chapter whilst binging project runway and snorting pink lemonade drink mix like coke so you whores better enjoy it (endearing)

But yes, another filler chapter whilst I wrap things up. I think this fanfic has started to run it's course, and I will end thing either at exactly thirty chapter or a bit after. I've been losing a bit of steam with this story and have started a few others that have been collecting dust in my drafts while I carv away at this one. I feel like the story I sort of created has run it's course, and while it wasn't anything too worthwhile, it was the best I could do with what I was given.

Sorry if the news is a bit disappointing, but I did announce this in one of my community posts on here. Hope you guys don't mind yet another filler chapter, but I'm really losing steam here. If you have any suggestions for the last few chapters than be my guests! Thanks for sticking with me.