NoahXMichael Au's<3

Forbidden AU part 7

Requested by - @YOURaNJIL
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Michael's pov:
Everybody was practically persuading me to talk it out with Maisie and i wanted to, i just couldn't.
I couldn't be bothered to do anything.

I just wanted to curl up into a ball and hide in hopes no one would find me, unfortunately, Noah always ended up finding me.

"What are you doing under there? Your gonna hurt yourself." he sighs, kneeling down and peeking through, i rolled my eyes and crawled back out from a small corner under the cupboards, kinda claustrophobic i must say.

He pulls me closer to him, picking me up as he lays me back down on our bed, sitting next to me as he plays with my hair.

"Stop worrying." i grumbled, already knowing what he's going to say.

"Your just so off, it scares me."

"I'm fine." i look away

"Listen, you don't have to talk to her if you don't want to, i won't force you, i just want you to know that you can't hide forever." he holds onto my hands as i nodded, i didn't know why i couldn't just be normal and be okay with it, i guess I've always just believed i could just get away with my attempts.

Before when my father passed and i tried, no one really brought it up, they all just said they loved me and was always here, then i died not so long after so i didn't really recover.

But now it was kinda different, plus i wasn't even trying to attempt and they'd all beat me to it, really the only one i felt bad for was Noah because i knew how scared he was, i was in shock but i could hear him, the worry in his voice, his eyes shaking, i don't think I've ever seen him cry so much.

"Are you doing anything today?" i tilt my head

"Not that i know of." he shrugs

"I want to go back to our house." i mutter

"You sure?" he checks in as i nodded, he kisses my cheek, we tell everybody else, say goodbyes and then make our way through, i held a sleeping Elias in my arms while Eri was wide awake in Noah's, playing with the chain around his neck.

"You tired?" he laughed, unlocking the door as he steps into the empty house

"Uh huh, that was a long walk." i mumbled, we go up to the nursery and put down the two who had gone down for their nap.

We didn't have much left to do for the day, it was about seven pm and we decided to just watch a movie, went not really because i we were more focused on making out than watching the notebook.

"Wait-" i gasped, turning my head to the side to catch my breathe again.

"You okay?" he laughed, rubbing my back as i nodded.

"I just want to stay with you forever." i mumbled, hugging him, confused he hugged me back.

"We are already, baby." he kissed my collarbone
I muttered something incoherent under my breathe, wrapping my legs around his waist, we were far from Maisie and Aiden, so atleast he didn't really had a choice to bring her up as much now.

A few days had gone by, I'd say i was getting a little better, maybe because I'm surrounded with less people, but i did consistently ring my father and talk to him to bring me comfort because I'd always end up hiding and having continuous panic attacks.

Noah was out doing grocery shopping, i was under the table, panting as uncontrollable tears rolled down my face the more my brain remembered things i didn't want to remember, i covered my mouth incase i woke the twins up, it'd taken me hours to put them both down, one cried while the other slept and then woke them up.

"Michael?" Noah called out, dropping down some bags onto the floor as he looked around, he paced around the dining room as i sniffled, trying to relax.

"What are you doing under here, baby?" he kneeled down, peeking through from under the table as i hid my face, sobbing.

He moves a few chairs as he crawls under the table, bringing me into his arms as i shakily layed my head on his chest.

"What's wrong, baby?" he rubbed my arm, i coughed, trying to stop myself from crying, but i couldn't, i couldn't do anything, i felt helpless.

"It's okay, can you follow what i say now?" he lifted my chin so i would focus
on him, i nodded slowly.

"Breathe in through your nose, out through your mouth, good, repeat that." he instructs as i follow along, my shoulders relaxed as i leaned in closer go to him, closing my eyes as i sniffled quietly.

"Don't go to sleep, let's get out from under the table at least." he pats my arm to stop me from dozing off as i crawl back out, he follows before i let him carry me into our bedroom where he layed me down in bed.

I cuddled him, leaning my forehead on his shoulder as he rubs my back, nuzzling his neck as i yawned, when my thoughts crept back up again, except this time i couldn't really hide because he's so much more stronger than me, he won't let me go.

"You still want to call me yout husband after all of this?" i ask bitterly

"Aren't you embarrassed?"

"Embarrassed that you had a normal reaction after your anxiety started striking up again in your own home?" he breathed out a laugh.

"Michael, you haven't done anything wrong, your going through a lot right now, that's normal, I'm supposed to look after you, that was my part of the deal."

"I'm not a good husband." i rasp, not accepting his sweet words.

"What makes you think that?" Noah's hand subtly flexed on my jaw.

"I'm a crybaby." i start, flickering my ashamed gaze from his face.

"So? Your just a little more sensitive? I don't care about it, i want to be there for you."

"I'm a mess." i continue sadly

"I signed up for your mess sixteen years ago."

"I'm needy."

"I like being needed."

"Your not understanding me! I'm annoying, your gonna get sick of me soon, i don't even know why you wanted to get back with me again." i blinked away any growing tears in my eyes.

"Listen, I'm sorry someone let you believe that your the hardest thing to love because for me it's the most easiest thing I've ever done." he hugs me tighter

"But why?"

"Because your my husband, you've already taken my heart, my body, my butchered soul and now my last name."

"So you do love me?" i looked up
at him

"I love you more than you'll ever know." he smiles, i accept it, not knowing what else i could protest against him, i press my lips against his, small kisses until i whisper that i love him back when i layed back down on his chest.

"Your parents hate me."

"Am i with them now?"

"Well no-"

"Because i chose you, I'll always choose you, u don't even fucking like my parents, i promise you, they will never come near five feet to you, I'll make sure of it, now go to sleep, baby." he kisses my forehead.