NoahXMichael Au's<3

Bullied AU part 6

Idea from - @Felicityafton07
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Noah's pov:
It'd been like, three years since me and Michael fixed up, i don't even believe it's been three years, but hey, we're seventeen now.

He'd made me try win him back for two years, before finally accepting on new year's earlier this year, he'd been better, thankfully, less hidden.

"Why are you up here?" i was on the balcony at a hotel we decided to throw a party at, Michael's parents and siblings had all gone to Italy for a few weeks but Michael couldn't be bothered going, shocking because he loves Italy, but hey, at least i don't have to miss him as much.

"I needed some air." i drank yet another cocktail from a cup with an olive in it before placing the cup down on the side of the table.

He joins me, looking at me confused, leaning his arms on the railing, i look at him, examining his face, he seemed sober, he didn't really touch drinks yet, actually, after everything came out, he kinda stopped the whole drinking thing, i think it was maybe his ptsd.

"Are you gonna come back down?" he tilts his head

"Why? Do you want me there?"

"What? No, you stay here then-" he was about to leave when i pulled him back, a slight surprised noise spilling out of him.

"Stay here, please?"

"Are you okay?" he raises an eyebrow

I sighed, leaning my back against the railing as i took his hands into mine, shocked that he didn't immediately pull away.

"How much longer are you gonna make me wait, Michael? I'd wait years and years and I'd even die still wanting you, but really."

"I dunno, it kinda slipped my mind." he shrugs

"But you've seen I'm not like that anymore, right?"

"Uh huh." he nods slightly in agreement

"So you trust me?"

"I wouldn't be here, otherwise."

"So can we get back together now?" i blurt out, he looks at me, pressing his lips together, keeping eye contact as his eyes softened.

"I-" he stops himself from speaking, i let go of his hands, grabbing hold of his arms.

"If you don't want to, that's okay, but don't lead me on, it doesn't matter if you break my heart either, just break my heart, break it a thousand times if you like, it was only ever yours to break anyways." i finally let him go fully, wanting him to respond, hoping for the better, but i wouldn't be unhappy with the worst situation.

"No, Noah, it's not like that-" he sighs, taking a deep breathe.

"I do, still love you, i- okay, if it didn't slip my mind i would've said yes ages ago, but yeah, i do want to get back with you, Noah, i know you've changed for the better, but just, promise me you'll never be like that, again?"

"I promise, i won't." i interlock pinkies with him, kissing his forehead.

I guess i do replay that same moment like probably, a thousand times a day, it was mine and Michael's birthday today, we were throwing yet another party at his house, since it was the biggest of all of us, he'd gone straight back to drinking loads when he finally realized he was safe, the only time I'm really afraid when he drinks heavily is when he goes out, because he just can be exposed to anything.