NoahXMichael Au's<3

Abusive Noah AU part 2

Michael's pov:
I woke up with a banging headache, it was bright, really bright. I whined and flipped over to my stomach, grabbing my phone to check the time.

Nine am

Flashbacks on what happened yesterday rushed through me in the speed of lightening.

Is he still here?

"Noah?" I croaked turning again onto my hip

"Hmm." He shuffled about in his sleep
He didn't go to work. He was here, with me, sober. He actually stayed. I smiled to myself before moving his arm so I could get close to him, cuddling him his arm that I moved wrapped around me, protectively. His head fell onto my shoulder, nuzzling my neck as he hummed in comfort.

"You gonna wake up?" I whispered, rubbing his back

"No, go to sleep for a little longer." He yawned

I kissed his head before I shut my eyes, it'd been a while since I'd fallen asleep that quickly. Maybe because I hadn't even been sleeping and the only time my body came to rest was when I knocked myself out.

I'd woken up from being cold, goosebumps making my skin all bumpy and weird feeling. I yawned and saw I was in the bathroom, and there he was, he still hadn't left. Instead he was swapping out my bandages, kissing every mark before putting a bandage.

"Noah." I rubbed my eyes

"Sshh." He soothed

I watched him as his eyes saddened every time he removed a bloody bandage, seeing what he had done.

"It's okay." I coaxed

"It's not okay, I hurt you." He kissed my arm

"It wasn't your fault." I whispered

"But you shouldn't just forgive me, you should be angry with me, more or less leaving me. You should, I won't blame you, I don't own you." He rubbed my cheek

"I don't want to leave, Noah. As toxic as it seems I know your a good boy underneath everything you hide from me, whether you like it or not, I'm not leaving your side, no matter how much times you hit me." I looked up at him

"You sound crazy."

"I know but well, attachment does shit loads to a person." I chuckled

"It's not right though."

"Of course it isn't, but I knew there was something wrong and I was right, as always. Noah, it's happened once and guess what? I figured you out and stopped you, if I can do it once I'll do it a thousand more times if it means your better, okay? Your not alone, Noah, you can talk to me, I'm the devil and angel on your shoulders who weigh your down but at least I'm not making you give up on yourself." I pushed his baby hairs away from his eyes and smiled at his worried face

"I should've told you."

"You would've still been forced, there's only so much I could've done, it's up to you now, you are your own person, I can't control you. Choose your decisions and I'll support them." I kissed his nose

"I love you, I'm sorry." He hugged me

"I love you too." I hugged him back

We stayed like that for a while, in silence, I listened to his heartbeat till he picked me up and dragged me back into our bed again.

"What were just gonna stay here?" I raised an eyebrow

He nodded snuggling up to me, I smiled and kissed his head, liking that it was me in control and not him.

"I quit the job." He mumbled

"Did you?" I asked

"Mhmm, smashed all the bottles in that case too, I did it when you knocked out, well after I cleaned and changed you. It felt weird though, because it should be normal to do that, to look after you but it felt like how we were when we first got together."

"That's cause we haven't done anything normal other than argue. It's okay, hopefully it won't happen again."

"It won't, I promise." He held my hand, stroking my ring.

"I believe you, I just need you to show it, you did a lot of things to me, Noah. Mentally, physically, verbally." I looked at him, sitting slightly up on his lap, wrapping my arms around his neck as he sat up properly to straddle me.

"I know, and I'm sorry." He lifted my chin

"And I forgive you, well I don't, but you must understand it's different from last time, we were much younger then so obviously I didn't talk to you how I felt. But we're not gonna get older so it's time for some changes." I explained gently
"You hurt me, Noah. Yes, I didn't do anything to ressolve it but still. Your lucky I didn't get worse enough my parents started picking me out. I would've lost you, please understand that. I can't let this happen again, ever, it's too difficult. You can't allow yourself to get like that, again. If it means you have to cut back things you normally do, then do it. Because I want you, Noah, this version of you, not that version of you. Ever." And then I kissed him.
His hand reached up to my hair, running his hand through my hair as he kissed me back, more roughly. While positioning me properly, so I don't fall his hand went under my shirt rubbing my hip, I pushed myself closer to him, wrapping my body around his. I'd forgotten how it felt to be this close to him, he still had kept his shape, muscular arms and legs, he'd only gained a small amount of weight from the amount of drinks he'd had over the years.

"Your so perfect." He whispered as he layed me down, crawling on top of me
I smiled at him, stroking his collar bone.

"Can i?" He asked tugging my shorts

"Yes, Noah." And I pulled his lips back onto mine as he pulled my shorts down, trying to ignore the scars.

I distracted him by pulling his sweats down, rubbing his cheek.

"Breathe, baby." He whispered as I noticed how I'd gone tensed from how much I was thinking.

I took a deep breath as I watched him position himself with me, taking my hands and holding them tightly, he looked at me for permission which I nodded too, taking more deep breaths as I felt him go in, I moaned loudly.

"I know, baby, take your time." He kissed my nose and began kissing me again
I re adjusted till I felt more comfortable and gave him a look to tell him I was ready, he moved in a slow pace, my moans gradually forcing itself out of my mouth, I wrapped my legs and arms around him as I arched my back, moaning more and telling him to move quicker, he did as I asked.

"You can't forgive me this fast, fuck." He groaned

"Who said I did?" I gasped feeling him move in more

"Good." He tugged onto my bottom lip

"Noah." I was blushing hard, I was probably most likely red but he didn't care.

"I know, come for me, baby." He crashed his lips onto mine

I thrusted my hips to match his energy but my legs weakened quickly, he tongue fought mine as my body shuddered, I squeezed my eyes closed, letting my body weaken as I cummed. It didn't take long before my eyes shot open from feeling him come into me, I was a horrible mess, I could sense it.

"Your so good." He sat down pulling him onto his lap, I buried my head into his bare shoulder, kissing him all around.

"You still love me?" I asked

"Always." He kissed the back of my neck