You can't fool me.
I was raised by an OG.
I know the difference
Between LOVE YOU
And I LOVE YOU.
The difference between
Actually busy
And definitely uninterested.
I know what it feels like
To be at the forefront of someone's mind—
The thought before every decision.
A priority,
Not just another option.
I was taught young
That people make time
For what they really want.
For what actually matters to them.
And silence—
Silence speaks louder than words.
Louder than the excuses
That roll off your lips
Right before you tell your friend,
"This girl keep calling."
"This girl keep texting."
You didn't have to part your lips
To say it out loud.
Your delayed replies,
Your cancellations,
Your constant inconsistency—
The maybe later,
The let's try another day,
The I'm too tired,
The I just need some space—
They said it all.
Everything your mouth
And your heart
Didn't have the courage to say.
I wasn't asking for the world,
Or all 24 hours in your day.
Just effort.
Consistency.
Proof.
Proof that I wasn't wasting time
Filling a cup
That could never pour back into me.
Proof that I mattered to you
The same way
You mattered to me.
But instead—
I got the coldest shoulder.
Not even enough love
To just tell me it's over.
The distance between us
Is the distance
Between MAGA and the rest of America.
That same distance people save for strangers.
That awkward small talk,
Like we're just two randoms
Who happened upon each other.
I wanted clarity.
But you can't give
What you've never had.
So instead—
I'll give you what I've been asking for.
Here's your clarity.
No chasing.
No begging.
I cared for you.
But not anymore—
Not in that way.
You strung me along,
Used me when you were in pain.
Made me your medicine,
Shot me into your veins
Just to feel better again.
You weren't interested enough.
And I thought—
Challenge accepted.
See, we were both the problem.
So I won't sit here
Just blaming you.
Because it takes two
To play a game.
But I'll remove myself—
Because I finally learned
That peace
Is louder than closure.
And clarity...
Isn't always what you get from them—
Sometimes,
It's what you give
To yourself.
