5SOS- I Need You.

Ayanee and Asher (20)

*AYANEE'S POV*

I never thought staying with the boys was going to be this amazing! My first night with the boys I thought it was going to be awkward but they made me feel right at home. Luke cooks for me and wakes me up for school each morning. It sucks that I still have to go to school but I don't mind, I get to come back home to 5sos!

Its Saturday, the first time I have to stay by myself and I have to admit I love it but it's too quiet without them. I miss the boys but like Luke said he won't be able to spend every second of the day with me and I understand that. Their jobs come first. Today they are signing autographs and doing interviews for their new album that recently came out.

I put their cd into the radio and blasted their speakers. Dancing around in the living room looking like a fool I grab the remote control and sing along to the songs. I jumped onto each couch flying my hair back and forth rocking out to their songs. As I was jumping up and down my right foot flew in front of the other making me fall face first onto the floor.

Laughing at what just happened I pick myself up off the ground feeling embarrassed. Thank god nobody saw that. As the next song begins to play I decide to look around the boys two story home. It was a nice size for a four bedrooms and two baths. I notice a picture frame on the table. It was a picture of all four boys with their moms.

It made me smile, seeing those boys happy makes me happy. Still holding the picture frame in my hand it made me think about dad's photo frame. I put it down looking away feeling horrible. He is probably looking down at me disappointed. I don't blame him. I still have no clue that what happened at his grave was real or not.

I guess I'll never know. Thinking about my dad made me think about my mom and Issac. I wonder what they are up too. I wonder if they even care that I'm gone. I bet they are excited. I bet right now my mom's celebrating with Issac that I'm finally out of her hair. I bet she is so happy without me, I bet.

I rolled my eyes picturing them happy without me as I walked over to the couch. I grab the blanket on the side of me and snuggle with it trying to convince myself that it's not true. My mom does care. Doesn't she? She is my mother, she is supossed to care right? Yes yes, ayanee are you crazy she does care about you. You are her only daughter. She does care.

Shaking my head trying to get this out of my head I reach for the remote and turn on the TV. Hopefully TV will get my mind in the right place. A movie comes on and I relax enjoying it. I laughed when something funny happened and cried when something bad happened until one particular part came on.

The boy comes home to find both of his parents dead until he hears a noise from his mother. She is stabbed and bleeding out slowly from her stomach. He grabs her hand and squeezes it crying hard. She smiles at him and tells him what a wonder son he is. She tells him how proud and how glad she is of given birth to him. I tear up thinking of my mother again.

You see ayanee this is what a mother does. She is bleeding out right in front of him and is telling him how much she loves him. When did your mother ever do that? If that was your mother she would just lie there bleeding while you are crying! She doesnt care about you. She never has, when are you going to wake up and realize it! Open your eyes ayanee.

At that moment I jump from my thoughts hearing a loud clap of thunder from outside. I get up checking the window. I had the speakers blasted so long that I never heard it raining and thundering. It was so black I couldnt see anything. Another big clap of thunder sparks again in the sky making me fly back closing the curtains fast. I ran to Luke's room that was downstairs next to the livingroom, jumping into his bed grabbing his nirvana hoodie quickly throwing it on.